i will be a childless 38 year old filling my life with sleeping on the ground for 4 hours a night and eating unsalted potatoes

True, sometimes I don't know if my thoughts bwill ever be settled though tbh

I'm a fucking lunatic

I have OCD that drives me fucking insane

everybody these days says they're loonies

I stopped believing them

I have ADHD and Tourette's too which adds to the cacophony of shit that makes me the nutcase that I am

what are your ticks

Mostly vocal and muscle twitching

Dude if someone fell comfortable around you

do you say hilarious stuff sometimes?

I'm lucky enough to not have shouting profanities as a tic

It's mostly just small noises that I can conceal reasonably well

Stick to them , try to open more and maybe you could settle right?

But the facial muscle twitching gets bad sometimes to the point where the muscle begins getting sore from doing it so much

:/

@Wether47 yeah possibly but I get so bored of people so easily I doubt I'll find anyone that I can truly stay with for the rest of my fucking life

It varies in intensity though

Sometimes it hardly bothers me but other times it drives me nuts

My neurologist said it can become enflamed by stress

I just want to find a girl that I never get tired of and don't want to be without

As cliche as that sounds

Why does life have to be so fucking complicated

That’s the dream pal

Life is miserable and short

Sometimes repetitive and meaningless

But why need to make some sense or at least try to experience the most of it

Even if that’s sound even more stupid

No I agree with you, that's what I want to do

It's just some days I don't even know where I'm going and where I want to go

Then do what ever it’s on you mind either way you will regret that choice right?

If you don’t you’ll regret it if you do you’ll regret it at simple as that

True, I have so many regrets about life already

I might as well just take things as they come

based Kierkegaard

thats my fav quote of all time

Yep he helped me quit a bit

Although philosophy helps in theory in practice can be a clausterfuck

true true

you have to actually expose yourself to certain limit experiences to test your own will to apply whatever morality you chose to inherit

you wither break at the task or you confirm what you already know making the whole ordeal pointless