If I had the will for it

force yourself

be strong

dont think just do

Dig deep
Hit hard

If I didn't have a mental condition

get up and just go walk

^^^

Like get angry fucking easily

That

Dude I feel ya

Dude I lose my shit at the smallest shit sometimes. I can tell you; working out is one of the best ways to get that shit out

I get like that

Exhaust your body; strengthen your soul. Ride eternal, shiny and chrome

But you've gotta ask yourself, is this shit gonna control my life or am I gonna fight it

It's very different

Preach @Hellhound6

My father went to the doctor one day

And found he had something up with his head

Not serious, but still

Indeed, got the same problem as him. Like the same attitude

Makes me mess up with every people I meet

sounds like you are in your head about it to much

Feel like a curse

can't let it control or define you

I can, but not everytime

After some years, I've got a lot better

just try your hardest with it man and it you feel it winning just remember that you can't let it win

I'm gonna tell you a story lad

Theres this kid I know, he got into some trouble because of the shit in his head. Got himself committed to one of those head shrinker places right? No big deal. Hes smart, he knows he can handle it. But one day he overhears one of the doctors talking to a nurse and a psychologist.

"I dont think that kids gonna make it past 18. Hes a lost cause."

That kid took those words and said "Fuck you." He shrugged off the labels that he and others forced on himself and rebuilt himself into someone. Someone hes proud to be. Dont let *anyone* define you. If you've got shit in your head that's fucked that's just fine. We all do. But the minute you resign yourself to "This is just how I am" you lose my dude. It's a war against that shit every day. Dont give up.

The only easy day was yesterday. Shit's rough, but youve either gotta suck it the fuck or get help. Youre not allowed to fucking quit.

It took me a long time to figure that out. When I first got back to the states, I was a mess. All I wanted to do was drink. I didn't want to be around anyone, I didn't want to do anything. I wanted to ride the fucking self pity train til I died.

Then I woke up one morning and said "I either I get my shit squared away or I blow my brains out" well I'm getting my life together now.

It's a daily struggle, but it's fucking worth it bro.

Still with a lot of doubts

Bro, youre always gonna have doubts

Thats the fucking disease

That's what it does

The reason so many people deal with depression is literally because there's nothing to stimulate us anymore

I know who I am and I'm never pretending to not be

But at the same time, I get very lonely 'cause of it