this crap is hitting me hard fella, not going to lie

bruh, I'm just living for the moment

never thought the death of my grandfather would fuck me up like this

Zen, Tao, the now. Dont be concerned with things you cannot control.

catfish, go buy yourself a bottle of nice booze.

it's been years that I can't live the moment

and its not just about war, its death itself

I know I know, enjoy when you're still alive

It will end and never return again, but enjoy

I can't think like that

understand?

that's why I feel soo shitty

anxiety and distrust has been haunting me a long time

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBHwYaVXH7g @Sir Harndes

I want to see again all my past family members. My mother and grandmother keep telling me they're all alright, death is not the end, etc. Technically I believe'em, as well as a lot of people who says the same thing, but somehow I do not allow myself to ''believe it''

and I've heard too many cryptid and paranormal shit to say ''there's something more''

But inside me I fear for the future

I know, not much u can do for me. So many thoughts

We'll all be good bro. Have faith

Boog bois roll deep

faith on what?

That this war won't be the end all

as I said, not just the war

Boys, I'd like to propose to my gf, been together for 6 years almost, one problem, no ring and I still love with my parents

Live*

So move the fuck out

Lol

No shot

No money

I'm more of venting then anything

Military is going to be hiring soon

I've been disqualified permanently

I'm just bitching really

The ring you can always go less costly but have it made out of interesting materials she would like. But I would definitely recommend waoting until after you move out to propose, unless she lives with you already

Yeah

@queefburgler why dont you have a job

Do

Ido

I'm a tech at a dealer ship, works slow and do to stupid financial decisions I finally got myself out of debt yesterdat

I was paying as much as I could to get out, so now to save and save and save