@mister no man its not lonely, and remember to study the law of one

Arenot yoa

The last time I truly felt that it was like time stopped and I was back at the beginning

creation?

Step off

Of eco

Like

Jk

that means that every time u have sex its technically masturbation

Imagine you're in a white room with nothing

I like that

i have it with darkness lol

with black curtains?

You go crazy after a while and eventually you start to create games with yourself to keep you entertained

And they become trivial

So you go further and start creating archetypes that interact with each other

you are creating your own universe

But it's not enough, there needs to be a struxture

So you create this system that you get lost in

Your imagination takes over until you remember why you did this in the first place

the universe is just an overactive schizo imagination

Then you're back in square one

Just you

Unironically

When I first experienced this I wanted to die

And never exist ever again

That’s

Investigation

Lol

To Thelema

It's investigation

So I distract myself with nonsense

Art

Music

Socialization

I help others

Socio is good

But it's not enough