To not speak of

So to ground from that I just cut off discord and reading

which makes sense

I've ritually destroyed implements before as well, but I believe for different reasons

I did it not to ground

if I can't take something with me when moving and I think other people would get ahold of it I just destroy whatever it is

But rather

To sacrifice it to the power of the logic model

Fun thing about larping deities into existence, the more autistic you are in your belief, the more power you're actually feeding in, theoretically just one ultra-autist could be capable of generating new deities through brute force. As such, Jesus had autism.

that makes a lot of sense

All of these implements are just extensions of my logic structures

Positive feedback looping my larp into my autism and my autism into my larp to grind more magic EXP

hence the destruction representing their true ascension to being eidetic tools

purely eidetic tools

Pretty much, old fashioned vamachara

If I jack off on this triangle enough times I will invoke Nyarlathotep

I did get something I can share though, the most potent secret name yet that I can share

The secret name of the heart of Yam, wanna analyze it?

It values 443, same as Ho logos and also Beth al

sure, I'll analyze it if you post it

strong gematria behind it

Even shades was a bit blown back by invoking it

It is ALHBVOOHRDYM

oh

My gf got an SUV, catch me laying back some seats and goin raw in a chipotle parking lot

vibration causes strong crown activity

how are you derriving these names if i might ask

like i understand a lot of this math

but cant help but feel like theres something missing i dont quite grasp in order to derrive my own names

I personally like to see it as ALHIM=AL all force in extension, YM=the ultimate negative, reception, H=the Gate and marriage point. Thus occurring at the marriage point is BVOOHRDYM=357, same as fear, Virginity and Torah. Thus the entire synthesis

@Hairy I'm not on board about the power of names coming directly from their composition but even reading that name it feels powerful

This might be some shit

@Dorieus I got it from a long ritual process of evoking a ancient Semitic deity

It echoes really well

In pieces

marriage point would coincide with the ruach gematrically as well

at least by theosophic reduction

hey uh

which would be correct

Whats gematria

I'm curious now