Message from @Spirit

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2017-03-20 04:18:43 UTC  

boobs are a pain

2017-03-20 04:18:47 UTC  

sometimes they hurt for no reason

2017-03-20 04:18:58 UTC  

I be thinking about cutting it this way

2017-03-20 04:19:04 UTC  

No, I know he cares, and he says he finds me attractive, but sometimes I wonder if I disappoint him in a way. I know he could do so much better than me, he's so handsome and he's got so much going for him. I've told him this before and he always responds with "You look fine" but the thing is, I don't want to be just "fine" to him. @💧HisoMachi💖

2017-03-20 04:19:13 UTC  

Sorry for my novel lol

2017-03-20 04:19:16 UTC  

But they're a disinctly female feature that vastly helps self image in cases like mine

2017-03-20 04:19:43 UTC  

@Spirit aw if he likes u don't doubt yourself! Embrace it! 😃

2017-03-20 04:19:48 UTC  

Guys usually arent as deep as you expect them to be

2017-03-20 04:19:59 UTC  

If he says youre attractive he most likely means it

2017-03-20 04:20:42 UTC  

But I wonder sometimes if I'm really attractive to him or just passable

2017-03-20 04:20:43 UTC  

my guy always likes my really bad selfies

2017-03-20 04:20:46 UTC  

Speaking from experience from guy land, yes, there's usually no subtext. take what is said at face value.

2017-03-20 04:20:47 UTC  

He gets bonus points

2017-03-20 04:22:30 UTC  

I don't want to be just passable

2017-03-20 04:23:31 UTC  

I certainly don't. I want people to not even have to second guess or do a doubletake.

2017-03-20 04:23:39 UTC  

I should get there but it'd take time.

2017-03-20 04:23:50 UTC  

This basically like a second puberty and it therefore takes as long as the first one

2017-03-20 04:24:26 UTC  

What percentage of the way do you think you are? @Emma

2017-03-20 04:24:35 UTC  

just be glad there's no periods

2017-03-20 04:25:03 UTC  

I'd say I'm 4% of the way there.

2017-03-20 04:25:41 UTC  

How long have you been trying to transition?

2017-03-20 04:25:43 UTC  

Actually because of ups and downs in metabolism, I'll still get mood swings. Just without the regularity of periods. No blood though.

2017-03-20 04:25:53 UTC  

Im glad i dont have periods

2017-03-20 04:26:08 UTC  

Eh mood swings are like a normal Occurance

2017-03-20 04:26:15 UTC  

Then again I take birth control

2017-03-20 04:26:30 UTC  

So I still get like the symptoms of a period when it's time to but without bleeding

2017-03-20 04:26:30 UTC  

It'll be a year in just a few months. But I've been struggling with this since I was 3. I tried to hide it because I thought my parents wouldn't accept it. Turns out, I was right, they don't. But I'm not stopping.

2017-03-20 04:26:54 UTC  

I couldn't take it anymore after the Orlando nightblub shooting.

2017-03-20 04:27:16 UTC  

I knew, through a friend, three of the victims that were killed.

2017-03-20 04:27:44 UTC  

There's a youtuber I watched who updated her viewers every month for the first year of estrogen

2017-03-20 04:27:47 UTC  

Oh wow

2017-03-20 04:28:41 UTC  

Well congrats on taking control on that aspect of your life

2017-03-20 04:29:28 UTC  

There are two types of transpeople. Those like me that suffer debilitating dysphoria and have it medically diagnosed and seek a medical transistion. And then there's those that just say they're denying gender roles for oppression points and there's nothing actually wrong with them and they don't suffer mentally, every single day.

2017-03-20 04:29:39 UTC  

So basically "Actual ones" and "fakers for attention"

2017-03-20 04:29:45 UTC  

Usually pretty obvious to tell the difference.

2017-03-20 04:31:16 UTC  

How do you feel about the concept of being Agender?

2017-03-20 04:31:25 UTC  

Not real.

2017-03-20 04:31:34 UTC  

Those are people that just haven't resolved how they feel yet.

2017-03-20 04:31:58 UTC  

From experience, sorting out your thoughts on this is extremely difficult.

2017-03-20 04:32:10 UTC  

And it's very easy to get scared and get stuck halfway through resolving it

2017-03-20 04:33:48 UTC  

It's considerably more common with biological females that are, in reality, trans males. But with SJW anti-male hate, they're brainwashed into believing that they're bad people if they accept being male so many of these people will claim to be agender or any number of fake, made up Tumblr genders.