Message from @Clunt Estwode
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My town only has stoplights on two intersections and they're two blocks away from each other.
@sentri you awake yet bruv?
I wish I was in yr town
Cries
I am awake my friend
i'm ganna nap my friend
Helo
Nap sounds good.
*wish I can nap*
Ay friendo
Eyy
Can't fuckin talk
Ay I'll hang out here but I'll listen in here
Teacher passed by
In school atm 😭
Ay @Sentri, remember on New Years Eve that girl I was talking about that got back into contact with me?
Yessir
Yeah, She's started playing vidya games with me again and I'm really feeling chill at the moment
Now I just feel rate chill and it's pre good
Hell yea man
Yeah man
Nice mang
I used to get stressed about making her happy, and she'd get shitty pretty easily because she's really competitive.
But now I don't give a shit about what makes her happy, and I'm just concerned with having fun and chilling out and I've found it infinately more fun to play games with her
I like focussing on myself and chilling the fuck out. As long as I'm having fun it's a good game
No doubt, maybe y'all needed time apart to get along
Yeah I think that's the case
And In the group I used to be in, I'd feel like I was competing with other people to be friends with her.
I was trying to be something I wasn't to try and keep feeling like I was interesting enough. Her other friends she hangs out with fix her computer all the time, and that's not something I do.
But, just doing my own thing for a while and ceasing to seek approval fro other people has just stopped all the stress, and I can just focus on being myself
And it's good. I like doing my own thing, and I feel much more mentally secure interacting with my friend when I'm in the right frame of mind.
Mind you, it didn't help that those other guys in that group used to ridicule me for how I'd used to act out sometimes when I was extremely stressed, or I was experiencing side effects from medication.
It was no good, made me feel like shit, and it's just not worth my time.
I'm through seeking respect from people. If people don't show me some sort of respect as a person then they can just fuck right off.
Hell yes, you need to worry about making you happy before you can make anyone else happy. Otherwise you'll 've miserable and spread that
Yeah
It's a releif to be free of that level of constant stress.
It fucked with my behaviour, it fucked with my mental state, it fucked with my self esteem, and it fucked with my uni work.
Same, I was so obsessed with other people and how they thought about me
Now all I do is to aim to make people at least smile and make my life not that stressful
I'm just happy chilling the fuck out and just being nice to people
I mean, I don't have much tolerance for people that shit me off, but I won't let it get to me
Good morning eberyone