what's to say i don't interact with other people

I'm sure you do but not in an intimate way

and I think being afraid or being aloof or whatever to having an intimate relationship, and believing you'll NEVER have sex etc, is a red flag

to be honest

i said above that "i don't know what i might do in a drunken stupor"

"so i don't need a chastity belt"

or something along those lines

it's just not something i actively seek out

Okay well that sounds better than the vibe I got before. IDK sorry if I'm being like super nosy or whatever I've just dealt with so much anxiety especially anxiety surrounding other ppl so much and it REALLY sounded similar to stuff I would say when I was at my most isolating and depressed state

generalizing ppl who you would potentially be in a relationship with in a negative light bc you want to avoid them etc

i'm not going to deny that i have anxious thoughts; nor anxious feelings, nor that I am avoidant in nature

I think those are traits that are worth attempting to explore in therapy tbh

just it benefits no one to focus on eradicating the negative when i could strengthen my strengths.

I disagree I think it would benefit you

duly noted!

and it would benefit the person you might not otherwise have ever been with

well i'm not sure about that

and potentially the family you might not have had

nor that

do you have issues with self esteem?

this is a strange conversation

it is a bit strange, but i'm answering as, well, you have to satisfy curiosity

what is self esteem

self worth

a belief that i can do something or

how would you define it

what is self worth

are you saying that if i saw a child on the traintracks i should value myself over it?

well I guess a simple way of stating it would be "do you like yourself"

yeah, i'm pretty fun to be around

do you view yourself as being worthy to be loved

if you can't answer that I think you should consider why you can't answer that

not really, to be honest with you

why not?

because serving others comes before serving the self

but what does that have to do with your worthiness to be loved by another human ebing

being

what love are we talking about

eros?

agape?

ludus?