So, you need to dig a ditch betwixt the wavepool & ocean.

but even then i only know what i saw

i can't 'see' it

you're literally telling me to 'suck it up'

it's a literal brain condition you know

i can't just close my eyes and think really hard to fix it

No, I'm saying figure a way to work around it.

yeah i have

memorization is bullshit

Well, no. It's a useful skill.

i can't deny it is but in some areas more than others

True.

if i position myself in such a way that i never have to memorize anything

then the problem goes away yes?

I'm a code monkey, so instead of memorizing code and tricks, i just remember where i used something similar

then i can look at that and extrapolate

It's avoided for sure, but ameliorated? No, it's evaded.

my memory is a pile of shit, but my extrapolation skills are rather extravagent

i can work through things rather easily and given only a few details i can make a wider picture

instead of memorizing how to do specifics i focus on 'how' to perform actions

Interesting.

in math i used to try and memorize shit

in math classes when i was forced to memorize lots of specifics and crap i did terribly

but when everything revolved around the 'how' of fairly few concepts i excelled

cause if everything can be boiled down to a few fundamentals

then it can be built up to specifics

True.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

the adderal is just because i have the brain of a squirrel though

As said, no judgment there.

i mean

you'd have to be pretty damn petty to judge that

it's like judging someone for taking tylenol for a headache instead of just 'drinking water'

Nah, judgmental is the default assumed position on forums like these.

I disagree

it's not judgement

it's negative opinion

if you can't see the face of someone you try to figure out what their opinion is by their tone of voice, failing that your innate nature is to be slightly on guard

so if we are discussing ice cream and you say you dislike chocolate ice cream

and then i say that i love it and can't understand why you don't

it's probable and understandable, if your first thought might turn to 'are they being dismissive of my opinion'