I suspect the buns had so much green dye in them that they were black.

I've read that stress could be a cause. I've had some weeks where my depression and suicidal tendencies have been fairly "lively".

Or that the black dye reacted in the GI tract to become green, or was just green in GI conditions.

Recently, I'm having dreams of killing myself, daydreams too. It's not like I try to think about it but my mind goes like "consider this scenario".

I'm not sure that would cause yellow poo.

Also, damn. Are you treated?

I rejected it. Rather be suicidal and socially retarded than just be high as fuck.

...yeah, I am on SNRIs, one thing they definitely do not do is get you high.

You know what I mean, I don't want drugs to just nullify my brain.

I ended up in the ER 3 times before turning 20. I haven't tried since (I'm 27) but I get impulses at times.

I have no idea what that is supposed to mean.

"nullify my brain"

I like to write, I like to analyze, I like to understand as much shit around me as possible... Drugs aren't good for that.

Most modern antidepressants do not impede cognition.

Indeed, there are some in the pipeline that are cognition enhancing compounds.

Also, doctors once knocked me out by accident. I got locked down for like 3 weeks and 2 nights in a row they had to drag me to bed because I was 100% KO.

I'm sorry that doctors made a mistake and knocked you out. I am missing part of my stomach, part of small intestine and part of my large intestine because of such a mistake. However, I know that I need treatment.

It's different, your stuff has been studied. Being crazy is all neurological and that area is 99% unknown. Doctors are guessing, I don't like that.

Do you know what a placebo controlled trial is?

I also rejected going to therapy every single time, it's all bullshit, it's all jabber-jabber, no real science.

I believe in real medicine. Psychology and psychiatry aren't real science.

You realise that you don't have to have any understanding whatever of an illness to treat it right?

This is thanks to the placebo controlled trial.

Neurobiology is real science but, well, they're still nowhere near developed enough.

I am currently finishing my neuroscience degree. I have depression too, and take 150 mg daily of venlafaxine.

It has helped me greatly.

They even did a MRI of my brain. The only thing they told me? "Your brain activity is above normal".
G-fucking-G, morons, how much did you have to study to see that the screen lighted up more than average? 🤦🏻

They told you in such simple terms because you are not a neurologist, as you have clearly demonstrated.

Neuroscience is cool but it's nowhere near to being able to treat real people.

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No, it absolutely is.

I am one of those real people being treated.

They're guessing what drugs to give you and it's all based on your "feelings". What real science puts feelings as a centerpiece of a diagnosis?

Be warned, most antidepressants take approximately two weeks to start working, around the length of time it takes a newborn neuron to mature.

Feelings are real things, emergent phenomena of a complex brain, and can be studied.

Neuroscience, for example, is mapping out reward circuits in the brain as we speak.

Nah, fam, they're INTERPRETATIONS and, as such, SUBJECTIVE and subjective stuff can't be part of any real science.

You are not only ignorant of neurology, but science in general too. There are subjective models even in Chemistry, such as the hard-soft acid base theory.

(Which none the less does an excellent job of predicting metal-ligand interactions.)

I trust that, one day, neuroscience will reach a point where it can actually cure people and basically just be another regular part of medicine. Right now? It's closer to homeopathy than to anything actually effective.

lol