Relationships take work.

That is true.

but because I of my low self esteem though, I took that maybe to far.

Things are still developing.

More to the story one sec. I need more ice, more booze, and a bathroom break.

Quick side story, what the Japanese call a "Gaiden" i think

Jerbear's birth was super scary.

When Candiru was near full dialation they put a hard monitor on him. He was about to crown.

But his heart rate went from 150 (normal for a brithing child) to 50 (omfg dangerous)

They had to do an emergency c section.

But the docs were super pro and NASCAR pit crewed that shit

by the time I got to the OR in appropriate attire a nurse came out and said "baby's fine, mom's fine go back to the delivery room"

long story short he had his cord wrapped around his neck twice. it was choking him.

but he came out perfect, and is hilariously average in terms of weight, and height. Just a little advanced intelligence wise.

Do I still have an audience (I am a drunk attention whore)

Yeah

We put here

Abour to shower

after his birth everything was cool for a yearish.

but there was an underlying problem.

My Hilton job was abusive to me, but also on swing shift.

Years before we married I'd gotten involved with the union to help people who were underpaid and stuff.

for my union involvement i was fired.

but the union got me reinstated.

however, they didn't care when after reinstatement the HR departmemnt bullied and abused me

but due to my home and school life I was use to being abused and considered that treatment normal.

But yet I persisted. Working hard, trying to be a good man for my wife and child

I applied for many other jobs. etc

Oh, one thing i forgot to mention

before we got married I got a second job to pay for it.

The honeymoon and a small part of the wedding that is (candiru is a modest woman, the wedding was not extravatgent.)

that second job was at another hotel.

so for two years I worked 60+ hour weeks and did permanenet physical, and possibly psychological damage to my body.

also, my wife's family doesn't care for me.

becuase I am not good enough

which is technically true.

So here is where shit gets real

I finally have an opportunity outside of the Hilton

to become a part time school bus driver

i get into the program

work hard on the training