I just know that praying and forgiving has relieved me of my suffering

I don't know if there is a God.

I know there is Satan, for he has been revealed to me as my thoughts. be it spirit or ego.

In any case, you will die and suffer. The question is what is the position to calmly accept what is happening.

No

You won't suffer and die if you find the kingdom within

or so I hear

I wouldn't say I am suffering

I have had no negative emotions for ~4 months now

Just peace

Have you forgiven your mother, Russki>

?

But did someone attack you?

In this 4 month

No

No wonder

What do you think would happen?

You're ass would be beatten

You think?

Yeap

Why so?

You're preaching a little bit

Conversing

It's great mark

Did you want me to ignore your questions?

My thought is, if your ass were crammed in these four months, then you quickly lost your calm

Crammed?

You mean in a fight?

Yeah

The silent prayer has allowed me to live in the present, in reality, with a clear mind. More able to react to things.

If nothing else, I at least will not be caught off guard

And one would hope my martial arts training helps

I don't intend on fighting though

But I think I could stay calm

by living in the present

and not Satan's lies

Anyway. You got my idea.

Sure

So why your life in the present does not give you the opportunity to answer my question. Why does God allow children to suffer in hateful families?

I don't know if he has a choice. And in my present state, perhaps I have not found His kingdom within. Perhaps I am on my way. I don't know.

He made us this way, that we can procreate

I don't know if he can change that, or even if he should if he could