No im not thinking of suicide at all i used to be but i remember these youtubers who i used to watch and they helped me laugh which kinda got me out of that state because i was in 6th grade, i had horrible math grades and i sucked at lax but then i kept watching those vids and laughing and i also realized that i was getting weaker and fatter so i started working out and i got better and then i remember in math class waiting for a test to come back and thinking i was gunna fail it but my teacher called me out and said that i got the best grade in the class and that the test was REALLY hard and i had Ds in that class before so i turned around and got better then i got better at lax and i ended up getting new friends and ended with As and Bs in all my classes then 7th grade hit and i had it made for lax because i was the only defender with experience and i had worked out a lot more and i got into economics and politics kinda (that would come later) and i kept working out and then covid hit and everything sucks now
As for those youtubers i mentioned most of them got banned because of harassment
