Message from @Deacon Tyson Bowers III
Discord ID: 591181072520445962
I used to be very Christian
believe it or not
humble yourself, get on your knees and pray to Him. tell Him you need revelation to continue the faith b/c you are losing it
ask for it
he'll show
I did,actually
a lot of times. I went to church more. I prayed for my confusing feelings to stop for many years
I told God I would deny them
And that I wouldn't doubt God's existence
but it never stopped
the last time I prayed was when I was crying in a public bathroom down on my knees pleading for a sign
and i looked everywhere for god but he wasn't there
He's always there, especially for the contrite spirit
then why didn't show then?
it would have changed everything for me
keep trying. be thankful and think about His creation. tell him what you are thankful for, and what is glorious, then ask again for revelation. He will deliver
no he won't
he really won't
you need to know he will
because he isn't there
and that's what Ill believe until I see otherwise
that's the attitude I had
he showed me nothing
until my friend died and he made an exception
He knows your heart
then he knows I'm done
that's what free will is for
I don't believe in hell but I guess to you I'm burning in hell for all of eternity
your path leads there, it has nothing to do with what i think
I guess think when you die you die
but I'm willing to give religion another chance
this mortal cursed body dies
you continue
maybe I'll try mormonism
mormons think you end up on your own planet
cool
and that God is on planet Kolob having endless celestial sex
and Lucifer and Jesus are brothers
even better
and black people are cursed because they didn't take sides in the war