Message from @RidleyChozo
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and i prayed for the first time in my life
sounds like sleep paralysis. That's horrible
and he disappeared immediately
yes
sleep paralysis is demonic attachment
and when I called to God
a light shone in my window
everything was vibrating, booming
incredible power
and then I said sorry about my dead friend and we 'talked' for a while
the next day I went to work to tell a coworker about it
and hes out having a smoke break and some mexican preacher is there
he tells him to leavve
but mexican guy turns to me and says "to never know God is forgiveable but to be shown God and turn your back is not" and walks away
I'd like to have an experience like that myself. so if God is real he can show himself to me.
He doesn't always do that
then why should I trust he exists?
you need to seek him
I used to be very Christian
believe it or not
humble yourself, get on your knees and pray to Him. tell Him you need revelation to continue the faith b/c you are losing it
ask for it
he'll show
I did,actually
a lot of times. I went to church more. I prayed for my confusing feelings to stop for many years
I told God I would deny them
And that I wouldn't doubt God's existence
but it never stopped
the last time I prayed was when I was crying in a public bathroom down on my knees pleading for a sign
and i looked everywhere for god but he wasn't there
He's always there, especially for the contrite spirit
then why didn't show then?
it would have changed everything for me
keep trying. be thankful and think about His creation. tell him what you are thankful for, and what is glorious, then ask again for revelation. He will deliver
no he won't
he really won't
you need to know he will
because he isn't there
and he was never there
and that's what Ill believe until I see otherwise
that's the attitude I had