When I smoked DMT

everything turned into this... world of flesh and fire and creepy shit

I felt myself morph into this hyena like thing and run away my voice and everyone around me was... a demon

And I kept repeating i was in hell

then i hit my head on a fence outside

~~You're a living "don't do drugs, kids" ad~~

and was in a hospital.

I dont know if it was DMT

bathsalts

or whatever

It was FAKE weed

sprayed with SOME substance

after my GOOD FRIEND who'd smoke us out died

I lost my "source"

i'm surprised i didnt end up insututionalized

That time

i did in jan

Due to insomnia

I still have to take about 3 benedryl

or i dont fall asleep

It should be illegal to have this shitty of a life

and my parents dont realize worrying about me and keeping me on a leash

makes my self esteeem vanish

yeah

Well you can thank my parents

They kept putting me on ritalin and other shit as a kid

cause i wouldnt sit still in class

if i grew up 10 years earlier

none of this woulda happened

they said I was "violent" and "evil" cause i liked guns and military shit

after columbine

I'd rather thank capitalism for providing it's citizens without the necessary help that the handicapped, whether physically or mentally require.

so the school suggested "i be put into a mental ward" to "make me peaceful"

cause appairently being a masculine patriot with an interest in guns... is bad

YEah...

I'm not happy

Yea it probably is man

frankly i'm never happy

That was after... columbine

in like 1999

I was what? 10 years old?