Vanux let me just say that I felt exactly the same way like a year ago. I was exactly where you are. At some point, you have to just decide if you want to truth or if you want to be comfortable.

Nothing feels *right* about the situation we find ourselves in.

It's royally fucked.

Sounds like my experience

It aint easy realizing how fundamentally, deeply wrong modernity is

You seem like a smart guy. You're here, after all. You've recognized the movements that are fundamentally withering away all semblance of beauty and order in our societies. Now you just need to study those movements and find out the driving force behind them.

Empathy is not a bad thing

But reason trumps empathy

Breaking up families is sad (Sad!), but they still have to go back

just give me a while i guess

right now it's just like

shooting a foot soldier with an a-10

Lumping Moishe Greenbaum, the nice jewish deli owner who makes my ham sandwich, in with trotskyites and communists who are seeking to destroy America is sad

but they still have to go

When shit went down in Russia, all the Moishe Greenbaums were happy to starve, rape, and murder us

But, just how like 70% of all muslims support jihad and shariah, the jews will circle the wagons when SHTF

^ exactly

and Moishe will not side with America, they will side with their fellow Jews

they see themselves as a tribe, separate from Europeans, whether or not you see them that way

http://i.imgur.com/PvJgTma.jpg kind of how i feel at the moment

Do you care about Truth? Justice? Beauty? Then yes, you should.

What are you afraid of, discovering a difficult truth?

right now i'm metaphorically staring at it and knowing i should but trying to think of the consequences

There don't have to be any immediate consequences for your career/school, friendships, etc. All you require is a desire to know reality as it exists. Every man should want that.

Being 'redpilled' is a burden

it is

Duh

That is the burden of knowlege

Too bad yopu cant go back, eh?

I wouldnt go back

As a man you're mean to carry a burden

i can't really think about this right now

Sleep on it man, no rush. Just realize we aren't ebilnaziswhowanttogassixmillionjews

not that it's wrong, because my mental state has just been shattered more than it already was

We stand on firm intellectual ground, based on historical fact and intelligible arguments.

i mean, it's like taking shattered glass and putting in a blender

Yeah.

It's not a fun experience having your worldview shattered. But how you come out of it is the real test of manhood.

Recognizing truth where you see it rather than catering to your emotional desires.

i mean, to consider that, if you are right, pretty much half of my life is a fucking lie

If you ever have any questions, don't hesitate to ask.