are we talking about my ideology now?

irrelevant

not about your ideology

I'm talking about communism

it has its own philosophy

makes all things look different

not even my worldview. In some ways sure. Worldviews are dependent on factors in your life though. Things that shape it. Idk if I was shaped to be like this, or if it is more a natural state of personal wealth. Many people have many forms of wealth they wish to obtain.

some more malleable than others

some debatable as even a form of wealth

perspective changes that

but it is something you seek

things like having a ton of Instagram followers means a lot to me. Numbers. The way my mind works, validation of people comes with the amount of people under them or that respect them

"follow" them

in the literal since not the social media sense but that applies still

but you know, that's not just a number

I am the type of person that always checks subscriber counts on youtube

there are people behind it

I mean I know that

what does that really change though

I mean if I weren't seeing them as people it would change honestly

that is where the validation comes from

115k followers, that is at least 100k people

lel

but uhm

you aren't doing things that you like

wym?

you're doing things to make people like you

to an extent yes

I mean I don't live to make people like me

I live to be known

which btw, is a trait common amongst school shooters and tyrants who commit genocide lol

not that I want to be either

I have a moral guide still

I still want there to be a general respect for me amongst people

I want to have people that have my back

but if I have that, the only goal is notoriety then

if we want to dive into the philosophy of this

...you want to leave something memorable behind?

a few quotes

"You die twice. The first time is when you breathe your last breathe and the second is when your name is said for the last time"

or something like that