you do it more, and more, and more

I mean right now, it's the default

it's not just a once in a while thing

you don't have to worry about anything, whatever scars you bear

you have the power to choose your destiny

its the old trope that 'the people who bully were bullied too'

nothing dictates your life except your own self, you are as much as you are, no more and no less

that just reflects how angry and bitter I am

the fact that raging like I do is just minor pressure release

fake it till you make it

I am

this is a productive conversation, I like it

I mean... why do you think I am such a dick? I know why I *have* to be for survival

do more of this

I don't honestly know why you are

but why do you think I *need* to be for my emotional wellbeing?

I can only speculate

I always need something to hate, always

I assume you were brought up in a terrible situation

probably familial issue

I lie awake at night hating individuals past and present, groups, countries, civilizations, races

I basically feel an intensity and frequency of hatred and sadness that would crush most people

my eyes look so dead

but nobody gives a shit, at all, ever

comparing yourself to others all the time?

and that just pisses me off even more

it's no way to live

it sounds like death

I notice nobody empathizes with me in the slightest and it just makes me even more angry and aggressive, it makes me want to go out of my way to be a dick to them

the thing about that is

that's why earlier the yarfy furry thing was funny as hell to me

it was a WMD of interpersonal cruelty

why should anyone empathize, when you come at them fangs out

who do you empathize with?

my friends

I'm here now, and I care, though I don't really know the situation

I want you to be the best person you can be

i emphathized with yarfy

nah i dont. but im a lurker here

you have a good heart

somewhere