Message from @fallot
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you can't blame a kid for doing some rude shit or whatever
they don't understand
anyone I behave narcissistically towards, I do not want to empathize with
this is rationalization, that should not be a choice
I decide first that I don't like them, then I stop viewing them as a person
yeah
I actually feel quite strongly and regularly do things like crying for patients on wards
sounds about right
I don't think I've shed a tear for a human being in my life
and yet I am the crazy narcissist
you're not crazy but yes
that's why I said it
I'm not a normal person, but I don't have a personality disorder
so you cannot simply use such stuff as evidence that you are okay or relatively okay
it is somewhat heartening, but I can't make out the twists and turns in your mind
that led to you crying for a patient on a ward
my instinct is to say it touched your true self, which is childish and hence vulnerable
so you teared up
but I don't know.
that is about right
this child stuff
it can sound like an insult
really, it's not
I hope you understand
it's just what it is
you're not actually a child
for traumatic reasons (likely) your development in a cognitive (I think spiritual) domain has been arrested or curtailed
it's not your fault, but then it is too
because you do have a choice
I need to go do some shopping, be back later
oh one question
how did it feel to cry in that situation
good? bad? confusing? uncontrollable? cathartic?
the best I can say is it felt right and appropriate
like something I feel like I should normally do much more often but I refuse to because most humans are such garbage
so instead when something bad happens to them I force myself to think "good, they deserved it, haha dalits are dead"
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