Message from TheGreatShiniGami in Realism #general
Every effort always fails.
No exceptions. It's a trend that's followed me my entire life. Everything only works out just enough to keep me alive and keep me too cowardly to kill myself.
Ouch, I didn't ask to feel
Plus the Mexican Standoff about that with Mother doesn't help anything.
Don't feel then. It's not like it's worth you feeling over.
It's just how things are. That's why I call the world a place of punishment.
Well.. The last medicine combination that a psychiatrist put me on ultimately numbed/dulled everything, including the fear of failing a suicide attempt. Tried, nearly succeeded but of course not quite. They were able to resuscitate. Now the fear is tenfold while everything becomes more miserable and difficult to bear.
Shrinks are all Jews, Marxists or Marxist Jews.
I've been in therapy before, and nothing has helped in any way. No medication ever fixed anything, it just made it more of a monotonous, hopeless grind rather than apocalyptic doom.
Yeah, which is why I haven't returned to one. Been two years or so now
Like I said. This world is a place of punishment.
It'll get better. Has to, right? :^)
No, it doesn't.
And no, it doesn't. It only gets worse. Nothing ever gets better, at least from where I'm standing it doesn't.
Slight sarcasm there..
I figured. It's an automatic response at this point.
Even if someone says something sarcastically, if it makes the Voices scream, it prompts a response.
Yeah, I have a condition. No, I'm not going to go Dylan Roof, that accomplishes nothing and only furthers suffering.
As long as you're self-aware.
I am. Why else would I say that I'm a loser and failure?
My results speak for me. It's a painful awareness.
I want to hug you, friendo
Physical contact is cringe.
It's just another part of the condition.
A place of punishment.
Hmm, no contact at all? That's rough
For the most part man, people don't want to have anything to do with me after a certain point. It's just how events play out.
Maybe what I should have said is, "I want to somehow take your pain away"
It's not possible. Pain is all there is.
This bleeding heart may not be of a liberal, but it still feels deeply
Most racially aware people do.
You don't start becoming concerned about demographic replacement without going through a nadir because you understand that it will be your fate as well. "...for somewhere out there is a German soul in a worse state than I am, and it is my duty to lift him up as a fellow German."
THE LAW ALWAYS CRACKS DOWN ON THE LAW-ABIDING