your question contains your answer

What did you even mean by that?

No, it doesn't.

If error can occur, error has occurred.

So, it doesn't contain the answer.

meaningful children = creations of God who are able to choose himself themselves

Why would that be a good thing?

rather than simply being created in perfection

Why not just leave nothingness?

there is no nothingness

only god

Then do you understand why I hate god so much?

I do understand why you hate god yes

Why?

Because I don't think you do.

because you are distant from him and blame him for everything that you think is wrong with your life

And why is that?

and are a twisted shell of a person

And why is that?

that is because you have disconnected yourself from him

How?

by your own choice, you choose to see the events of your life as an imposition of suffering rather than a test for you

to see existence as a burden

rather than a blessing

so fundamentally you are opposed to god

See, that's bullshit.

okay

If it's a test, I failed.

So, why create me at all?

If I'm only going to fail the test.

what do you know about failing or passing though

And I didn't *choose* to fail. It just happened.

I know lots about failure.

My entire life is a failure.

Everything about me is terrible.

no, it's obvious you in particular as opposed to other people did make a choice

and make that choice all the time

How so?

you double down on your state at all times

And how was that choice not forced?

Because of my mental condition?