Do you understand what I'm telling you?

just do it

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ I can't.

try and eventually you'll succeed

Nope. It never worked before. Why would that ever change?

one day you won't fail to pull the trigger

I'm too cowardly to pull the trigger.

one day the russian roulette game will hit the jackpot

What about that did you not understand?

You're not listening to me.

I can't do it myself. I'm too cowardly. My mother guilts me into staying alive.

I have no money to buy a gun or anything else.

I have to have someone come help me in person.

So that way, it doesn't fail.

Do you get it yet?

@Hagel And of course, I couldn't afford the supplies for an ANFO bomb.

acetone is cheap

why does your mother want you alive?

And of course, screwing it up. Knowing my luck, I'd get caught immediately and then jailed, and then put in solitary so that nobody will kill me.

s that you'll work?

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ because she nearly died birthing me and she guilts me with that into staying alive.

And because nobody in my family can work but me.

tell her she needs to let things go sometimes

are they crippled?

fat?

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ That didn't work.

move them to california for welfare bux

Crippled up by arthritis, my brother has chronic prostatits, my mother hasn't worked in 15+ years.

There is no money to move to california. They don't give whites welfare bux.

Do you get it yet?

I read like 3 words of that pastebin

@Captain Lauri Törni And?

Will you help me kill myself?

No

Then you're useless to me.

That's messed up

What else is there?

All of life is messed up.

It's filth.

That is against everything I believe in

Why?