@Hagel I mean, I've described it as a personal curse. But that just sounds a bit like hubris. To think that I'd be cursed because I'm special or that they just wanted to hurt me more.

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ Nope. Fate would just simply fuck me over.

Good things don't happen to me or while I'm alive.

The only thing you could say about beings like me is that we hallucinate, and are actually miserable and hopeless

@Hagel But, even if it is a personal curse. What could ever be done about it? Nothing I've ever tried has worked.

But that's like saying a food actually tastes good, you just hallucinate the bad taste

We're talking about an inner state itself, so that doesn't work

I don't follow.

You claim that reality is hopeless and existence is torture

And it's not just an inner state self. It's my outward actions.

I am not being tortured by nature

Every Effort Always Fails for me.

So it's time you scale back your claims

I can't.

Every Effort Always Fails. The Voices won't let me scale anything back.

well made bombs do not fail

they also fertilize the earth with blood

You hope too much.

Fate wouldn't let me.

And of course, you underestimate my cowardice.

Oof

you underestimate physics to conquer schizo mysticism

@Captain Lauri Törni Go off again. Get Jimpacted.

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ You underestimate my cowardice.

What

I can't go anywhere or do anything.

I'm trying to help kill Zon

@Captain Lauri Törni https://pastebin.com/Ush6huDi

but Zon isn't cooperating

Read that and cringe harder.

can you help me kill him?

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ You're not helping. You're just suggesting dumb shit that I can't do.

I can't go to the sandbox.

I can't leave the state of Alabama.

acetone peroxide is easy to make

Not for me.

just make a huge batch somewhere isolated

it'll probably go off during manufacture anyway

And again. I can't do that.

make ten kilos of it

Too cowardly. I need someone to actually come help me in person.