like I had with my grandfather

It really hurts

Then everytime you get that thought 'why go on living' think of them, think of what you mean to them and what they mean to you and dedicate your life to them and making your own

Dismiss it as soon as it enters your head, thats the hard part, fighting your own thoughts. I joined my local volunteer fire company at 16, started running calls a few weeks later. I live for it, it is my porpuse. My advice, find something to define you wether it be volunteering or building. Find something you can call your own and dive into it

Make your life too important to take away, thats what did it for me, and it took a while, a very long time. But from wanting to end it all 5 years ago, now Im a volunteer firefighter (did some pretty kick ass stuff too, and im very respected there) and im an adult leader for the local cub scout pack, I'm 20 and I've had 10 yr olds tell me they want to grow up just like me.

Find something to love about yourself MORE then you can hate. And honestly i can say I'd miss you if you go too

tbh

I don't know what to say

Im an existencialist on this matter, like giving myself a purpose

Like

Just to think that all the work I do will be squandered sooner or latter destroys all of my will to change

Thats not true, I train often for rescue scenarios that I hope will never happen. (which this virus closing everything is eating me on the inside) and I ften think 'this is pointless im never gonna use this' but its all for the chance that if one day I need to, I can and I will

I cant tell you what your porpuse should be, thats something you need to figure out on your own BUT you have one out there. You may not make the history books but one day someone WILL remember your name and you WILL have a leagacy. You just need to find it

Your effort wont be squandered if EVERYTHING you do is to a porpuse one day

If you keep pushing and you keep grinding then you'll be golden

Hope I helped

yep

I had to vent

But I dunno if I want to discuss this

like

everytime I try, it ends nowhere

not even with my therapist

so I just give up

thanks lad

Dont give up on life to and no problem I try too

I don't guarantee

still dont know why I shouldn't give up on it

Cmon mate share with us

Cause you still have a porpuse

And not the dolphin kind either

dolphin?

Arent dolphins and platapys porpuses?

Porpoises are similar to dolphins
Both are marine mammals

Platypi are aquatic mammals
They live on land too in contrast to the other two

oh...

gosh...

I tried to make a pun and was just a dumbass, sorry

Platypi thanks, i tried

bed johke

*indian accent*

😂

All I saw on notifications was the question

I assumed it was a legit question
My bad