I'll give you your blackpill of the day kid. If she's used meat, damaged goods, she will never love you. She will never completely be yours. She will always think about some other dudes dick. Not you. You're the consolation prize. And ultimately you were unworthy of her purity anyway, so she too is a consolation prize. Chances are, you'll end up divorced. And because she's a woman and the system favors them, you're going to lose your kids, pay child support and alimony, and be lucky to see your children every other weekend. A decent probability that she will accuse you of domestic violence and the judge will believe her. This means you'll never own a gun again, and are banned from military and law enforcement, forever, without exception. You'll have a protection order, that bans you from ever talking to her or her family and friends, and have to get your kids by a supervised exchange that you will pay for. And every job you apply for, will know about your DV conviction.
