>cry

>read fiction

>cry

>play videogames

>cry

>obsess over guns

>cry

Arent hobbies supposed to help with depression?

Honestly that might work i love contact sports

@JP Yes.

@Drunkott

>go to strict regimented maritime academy

>have no car

>barely leave campus

>5:1 male to female ratio and the few females are essentially men due to necessity

>too busy with schoolwork to have a job

>maybe 1 to at most 3 hr of freetime a day depending on day

I started using dating apps just to talk to girls and I honestly couldnt a conco cuz I was so fucking busy

@JP you might like a manga thats become very populare called komi-san is bad at communicating

Its not nearly as sad, its about this seemingly perfect girl who everyone admires but actually has zero friends because she has a communication disorder

I try to limit the anime and manga i read and watch to avoid going full weabfag

Anime is just cartoons

I enjoy some anime, I enjoy some cartoons, even though yeah they are essentially the same thing just different country

But ill never say Im a cartoon fan, I never say Im an anime fan, I just like cartoons and anime among many other hobbies

idk

I just like watching and reading good stories

if the story is good or funny ill watch it

Its just one of like 10 different hobbies I have

Also this happened yesterday

>Go to regimented academy

>Every morning have morning formation with all the entire regiment, National Anthem, which is sounded by a cannon/live fire rifle (blanks but we call it live fire because the other rifles are deactivated)

>think about suicide a lot because Im a depressed little shit

>never actually really think of an actual plan because I'm a pussy and am too afraid to commit suicide cuz my family and friends will be sad

>realize that I could "accidentally" discharge the live fire while holding at present arms under my chin killing me from the blanks muzzle energy

>well whatever

>next morning

>get put on Honor Guard Bill, on live fire rifle

>"Todays the day" starfish screams in my head

>dont do it cuz that would be to much work and I will not kms if it means people think I'm a negligent /k/ommando

I think about suicide a lot

But I'm not going too, that much I know

Shits just really fucking stressfull and I haven't had any meaningful interaction with people, feel like I've just been alone for the last two months.

Plus I'm realizing how much life is going the complete opposite of what I hoped it would

So in short Im being a whiny bitch cuz life gave me the short straw and I need to stop being such a baby about it

Im starting to feel better

Its just been a hard three weeks but things are starting to get better, bible study helps a lot. Thanks m8s

This meme legit had me seconds away from crying

>talking to girl on dating app

>3 out of the 4 most recent messages I sent she responded with 'Haha'

Tfw

Holy shit she did it again Im not talking to this bitch anymore

We were talking, or I was mostly talking and she was spitting at max 5 word sentences

I told her how I used to work at a Special Education Vocational Program and she replies with 'Haha'

>try to give brickwall bitch another chance

>ask her how her day is

>she says not good

>ask whats wrong

>she says everything

>mfw

>ask her to give an example

>"Just the utter guilt"

>respond to her with "Haha" and leave

Ive done it boys

>Go on small town facebook page

>Old guy named Ron always sharing photos he finds on the internet of Air force or Coast Guard aircraft doing shit

>remember meeting this guy at a party my mom had, Air force veteran and a pilot for Coast Guard auxiliary

>comment on post, something tongue and cheek about Navy Aviation being better than Air force

>responds

>keep commenting on posts, sometimes comments on my posts

>start messaging each other

>litterally just talking about Air craft, international politics, trade wars, and Navy shit

>90% of time is him trashing on China's air force and me trashing on their Navy

>litterally bond with this 62 year old Air Force vet over our hatred for Chinese commies trying to flex their muscles

>he educates me on Air craft shit and how aviation ops work, and I teach him about Sailor shit

>feels good man

Y'all have anyone you talk to online regularly even tho y'all have met like once?

The best part is the longer I talk to him the more I find we have in common

the first convo we had that wasnt military related was me talking about my russian friend who hates communism with a passion and he started going off on socialism and communism

@JP No problem bro, everyone needs a little bit of wholesomeness in their life. Hope you're doing good and remember god loves you.

@[CrackedOutHobo] God definetely cares about us, I know this for fact

I know people dont see this as evidence, but I have prayed to god over matters and he has answered on multiple occasions. I and my bible study at the academy have prayed over matters to find sudden and swift resolution seemingly out of nowhere, and I have definetely felt the love of god in a room that is full of christians. Thats not counting all the 2nd hand stories from people that I trust

It also of course says so in the Bible that god cares for us and gives great examples that he cares for us even when it seems like he really shouldnt

no problemo

*B I G I R O N*

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