No it's not that drastic

Oh

Yeah sometimes

Okay so you know how you're the onky person who truly knows you?

And self discoveries did he find?

Just things he needed to change personality wise and goal wise

Yes but we can all change our behavior and become different people if our brain chemicals are changed and put in situations.

It's basically like your head is another person, but it's you. Throwing everything you dislike about yourself and ugly personality traits you didn't even know you had in your face

Exactly! I was gonna make thay point as well

You do not need this fucked shit to change yourself

You can just find yourself in that deep reflective mindset easier if you has happen to take some acid or shrooms

Remeber I'm not advocating it or trying to act like it's the only way to make changes to your life

I'm just sharing what I've taken away from personal experience

So, you personally did it for fun? I guess I'm trying to find that mark in decision making. Why some decide to take acid and others bowling to have fun. Lol

Yeah the intent was nothing but fun

And this is over like 10-15 experiences

It's different every time

Why so often?

That's a lot.

This was over 3 years

10-15 times over the course of 3 years or so

And the times you didn't self reflect? What made it worth it to you?

You just have a totally different perspective on literally eveything to the point where you feel like you're discovering things for the first time again. Like what carpet feels like or how water tastes

Shit as mundane as thay feels new so you're just running around "discovering" a different feeling sound and look to eveything lmao

And what would you say causes people to have negative experiences?

Mind set

If you're not in a good place in life you're gonna just slip down that slope

And the you're shit is already fucked up when you're sober amplify the stress, anxiety, self hatred by 10

What was your limit in trying things? What other things have you taken?

I've taken 3 doses of acid. Too scared to go higher lmfao

Why?

Coke, weed, cough syrup

Every dose up is exponentially more powerful then the next

Jesus Christ, coke?! BAD NOODLE!

4 seems about where real hallucinations might come in I think

Coke is so over hyped it's not even funny

What fun did you expect on coke and cough syrup?

That was just in the moment shit

Cough syrup just felt drunk without the feeling of drinking so nothing special not worth at all

Coke just feels like taking a super strong caffeine shot straight to head

However it is definitely addictive I can see how people fucj their lives with that

I quit that shit real quick

Acid is about the only thing id still maybe be willing to mess with later down the road

In Catholic school, I remember some girl doing coke on a desk and that traumatized me. I've also seen people with their eyes rolling in the back of their head, and large pupils and glassy eyes. It's terrifying to me.

Damn they must've been off their face on lots of coke and something else mixed

I can't grasp how its fun.

Don't get me wrong in the moment, you're drunk with your homies hitting lines and it feels wild as fuck. You're just hyped

I always regretted it the next day

Definitely not something I would like to be associated with or to continue using it

Was a very short period of time messing with it

Even people who drink too much to the point they don't remember. The way they behave is trippy in itself to me.
And I've gotten drunk before but never to the point where I can't remember. I don't see the point in passing that

The people you saw had to be off xans as well or some shit cause coke won't make you incoherent

Yeah I've never been blackout don't plan on it

Don't see the point as you said

I don't know what they were on specifically.

It had to be more then coke

Most likely Xanax

Sounds like she was off the xan

It sounds weird to me how you've done all this things but not blackout drunk. Lol a line you won't cross.

Hahah

It's not that it's a line I honestly don't get how to get that drunk

I've been pretty deleted drinking but I still never blacked out

And coke has a much more hardcore image then it really is

It's underwhelming the first time you try it

I don't know. It's just scary seeing people act abnormally based on how you know they normally behave. I don't know how to explain it.

The thought of just snorting something up your nose is uncomfortable.

I know what you mean. I had my homie come up to me when we were all on acid and tell me everything beyond the stairs was gone

That it was just black

Lol

Times was lit

It's definitely a wierd feeling, but less weird then you'd imagine

It could be all my weird negative experiences with other people on drugs that make me judge too harshly.

Yeah it all depends

I mean even me battling myself off three tabs of acid the sitter said I seemed totally normal I would just say funny stuff

Some people can't handle themselves

I compare it like having a one night stand. I don't really understand why they do. Just a short pleasure, they feel like shit afterwards and then what? What was gained except being tainted in a way.

But I'm pretty much done with all the fucking mamadas. It gets old and tiresome and I really didn't like the person who I felt I was

We a good noodle now fam

Yeah whiskey I just kept feeling regret for my decisions the night before to partake in the extracurricular activities

You're a dirty noodle picked up the floor but still can be a good noodle. Lol!

Rude! Lmao

I had my fun. Time to adult and make money

At 21, some people are barely starting to do what you were doing.

I'm glad I got that phase done with when I did

And despite eveything I feel like the experiences could be seen as a positive one

I mean I'm in a great place now I think

Be like the cat.

It's so weird, you know i actually don't know a lot of people who haven't done the shit I have and more

And I haven't found anyone more boring than me. Lol
I just never felt a curiosity to try any of those things.

And I'm scared of a lot of things.

And some people don't ever have the want and you know what all the better to them because truth be told I've been lucky

Especially never getting caught legal wise

I don't think you're boring

And that's another thing, where the hell do you even go to find these things?

Friend of a friend usually

Once you get your nose in its easy

It's just networking with the right people

And then you just find a plug who is cool and you both have mutual respect and trust and ez pz from there on

It alll starts with weed so fuck people who say it's not a gateway they're in denial

You weren't scared it was a set up?