really, from the pakis that live in Aus it sounds pretty bad

they are all wage slaves

sold off by their families and now slaving to their wives

Jesus...

Well i am a unique situation in the sense my family has tons of resources so they dont need me to marry

I'm glad I watched that Messenger Rising video early.

that's a good situation to be in

i couldn't imagine the hell nightmare these guys are living

My nephew's here now so I probably won't be able to.

sorry im new to this roko just asked me for app recommendations was this a pm or could anyone read it in the main chat?

Even in SHTF i would avoid violence almost constantly

for some reason i am super averse to physical conflict

after middle school i don't remember ever getting into a fight

so i am a beta in that sense

Anyone in the main chat can read it.

I use TFM's definitions for alpha beta and cuck.

I guess its just that ...

well i don't really have any emotional investment in anything

Do you have an emotional investment in yourself?

Yes for self preservation

but other than that i dont think i can summon the anger and rage needed to fire me up

to commit violence you need some anger and agression

i think i lack any capacity for that

maybe you should summon it out of the frustration that the possibility for emotional investment is neglected to you, its kind of a robbery isnt it

I actually live with the idea that everyone despises me and wants me dead

its something i developed in school and really absorbed it forever into my brain

the reality is that they just dont care...

i guess its a psychological disorder

when ever i get these feelings i try to remind myself that they are way too egocentric

Paranoid?

Yeah maybe

Whenever i am around people, i assume they are working together against me

i can't really control it

it just pops out in my brain

That sounds like it for sure, I'm no psychologist though

this only happens when i am in a large crowd of people

sounds like something but im just a dude on the internet

honestly i have used the paranoia to feed my productivity

so i have always viewed it as a positive

How?

Same here, monk. I'm hardly ever complacent around multiple strangers.