Message from Kombat-Unit in tradworker #tradworker
Like from "wow, I've been entire week sober, amazing, time to PAR-TY" to being a month without any major problem.
That was me. I was the lunatic
Hard for me to really believe now
Yeah, as I mentioned, there was just attempted quintuple killing in which two guys from the crew got caught up in. Never a dull moment. You might wanna die, but you'll never be bored.
Except when you're waiting for a deal to go down
Ha, true. It does serve as a good training ground, it makes some of this political activism seem very mundane
Sounds like some neighbors of mine. Have the law over there at least a couple times a week, shit is ridiculous.
lol yeah, got that right
Oh we are going to get together & talk & stay sober & Make ppl angry, wake me up if you need me
I'm a pretty stupid cunt, I don't know how the first times you dealt with drug business went down, but mine involved three cars getting stolen, some guy getting his face kicked apart and cops. You'd think I'd have learned, but nope
I bypassed that lmaoweed phase completely
We could spend days going over the idiocy of our street careers I'm sure. I started really early 12/13 Juvenile life sentence didn't slow me up, federal prison didn't slow me up, I'm basically a fucking retard. Freely admit that, funny thing is the retard tends to only come out once mind altering substances are introduced, once that happens all bets are off
I've actually got a lot to atone for
Yeah...I'd say I'm pretty civil and mild mannered guy sober, maybe, but a nice speedball that doesn't knock you out cold gives such an ego boost you could start DOTR right that instant
And you behave accordingly.
The choir you are preaching too agrees. It's a special kind of insanity.
One I'm half ashamed & half proud I survived
I do think my life experience can be of service. Of that I have no doubt
I'd like to think so too.
Just trying to find my spot
It's a unique set of skills we bring to the table... still haven't totally figured out where they can help the most
Talked about it earlier, but the most important thing is the community, and props to TWP for acknowledging it. To support you and have someone to be accountable to.
The relationship you have with comrades is so totally different to one you have to junkies.
The upshot is I'm basically totally unimpeded by standard societal norms.
& The standard threats are basically hollow for me.
Social stigma is a powerful weapon to the uninitiated....but we are initiated, are we not
Very much so
I'm kinda curious how many NatSoc guys originated in similar enviroments.
More than I think most realize
I did. I just don't talk about it much XD
You can't trust the junkies with anything, and you know the difference between loving one and hating one can change in an eyeblink. While you can trust your comrades with your life.
It's therapeutic, sort of anonymous natsoc peer support
My stuff is more crime than drug oriented. Funny talking about anything like in a message board XXDD
What's funny is I avoided all the guys in the joint just bc they seemed to be such a fucking stereo type. I read their literature & I kept it cordial, but I kept my distance. It was an old lifer that started the red pill process for me. To be fair I was an easy target, I've been a revolutionary my entire life, all he had to do was wake me up & show me that we needed to build instead of destroy
I know so many ex druggie natsocs it isn't even funny.