thats cute

And I drink like three mugs of kava a day

but now you associate lavender with anxiety for life

Yeah I suppose

to make your dick have function?

What

kava

No kava is for anxiety

ohhh

i was thinking of maca root i think

I think it's becoming more apparent that I need to go into an institution for a little bit

yea

probably

because you wont be able to indulge

Yeah

do you have to work?

No I got fired from my job

when

Late April

okay

are you going to be homeless or are you good

I had just started doing skip tracing for a student loan servicer but it took them like a month or two sapphire me because I applied for the Americans with Disabilities Act but they rejected it because I hadn't been diagnosed yet

My third day of training at that job I passed out with heart palpitations and shit and they sent me to the hospital

So because of that I lost my job

okay

No I'm not going to be homeless

sounds like youre drowning in cortisol over there

Probably

I don't know what's going to fix this shit

have you been in a psychiatric hospital before?

No

i have

My understanding is they keep you pretty much in zombie mode the whole time

you can do it at home but there it's just easier

yes because they arent really equipped to deal with shit

not in a short space of time anyways

Do they do therapy with you when you're there

yea

do you not already do therapy?

kind of annoying to have to catch some new person up

then all the other people that're way more fucked than you are