I'm not gonna lie ; I'm pretty big on trust issues.
I don't know how and I don't know why but I wound up obsessing over being prepared for the worst, and hoping for the best.
By way of prioritization, I skip the latter ( a lot ).
By highschool, I was convinced it was a lot easier to assume that WHATEVER the wordt case scenario in your head was, to assume that was the truth and to prepare for it.
It helped me sometimes - hurt me others - it still hurts me innalotta ways to this day, because I don't talk to people or make an effort to ( see : no one means what they say, no one is gonna come through, no one likes you anyway, everything you say is stupid. shut up. [ it's yelling at me, even now ] )
Sometimes it breaks down to math and consequence - there are things beyond your control.
In that case? I find you have to analyze and decide what course of action you CAN take, to keep yourself protected / sane.
There is always a way through something.
You just have to find it.
I can't remember if it was you or Jaru who I said this to - but if you seem to or feel like you have "" too much to deal with "", it helps to break it down into pieces.
Like Mac was saying ;
notice you have a negative outlook
consider those circumstances and what you can do to change them
when you next think on the dark side ( fuck, isn't it easy ), take steps or try to approach it differently, and take a different route
It's not easy ( FUCK DUDE - it is SO HARD. I have been ""the negative person"" my whole life, and when new shit comes up, I'm S T I L L convinced it'll be bad ). But taking small steps ; tackling your problems in chunks, will help.
