Besides I still have glaring issues with anatomy as it stands 4 years later

😅

For some reason when I do studies things turn out mostly normal. But as soon as I start trying to apply that to a drawing with clothes or anything added it falls apart

My problem is a scaling issue, hands are twice the size of the head, and fatter than the Pillsbury Dough Boy

I have a rigged drawing reference in blender that I take screenshots with, but even with that, accessories like guns, weapons and armour are hard to draw for me

I have a hard time with perspective and keeping the whole picture in mind

If it’s not a diagram I have a hard time drawing it

Yeahhh

Weapon diagrams are fun though

When I try to stray from references I start fucking up immediately and I always underestimate things like foreshortening. It would help if I focused on getting better at art, but I like to do everything at once

Like, I like learning instruments, photography, mycology (And ecology), and I wanna do them all at once and I wont master anything as a result <.<

I’m pretty much the other way around, I tend to focus on one thing and one thing only until I get bored of it or inturrupted

oof

I feel like a failure of an autist in that regard

Granted I do tunnel vision on stuff but... it's lots of stuff

... I forgot other things like hiking and camping and my massive rock collection and other stuff.

But those are hobbies I guess not skills

... but it's all hobbies

*Idk*

“Failure of an autist” he says

LOL

You never truly fail at being an autist until you get a job

I had one!

At least by my experience

And I was good at it

But then I quit

I still have mine, and I’ll probably have it for the rest of my life now

oof

Me going to work was actually wasting money for the family

Cause I had to get dropped off everyday

And I'm making 10.75 and hour not including taxes compared to 26 an hour

I wanted to go to school to study video game design, but since my father wants to drag the separation out so goddamned long, I’ve got to stay home and make sure my mother isn’s suffering for the rest of her life

So *lobster plant for life it is then*

oof

I'm gonna live on family property but I see nothing wrong with it

It means all of us have more money and freedom when we pool resources

My sister and I are starting a business, my mom will have her rescue

There is that advantage yes

We'll all live in our separate areas on property at least

I mean. I'm gonna be duplexed with my sister and we're gonna have a secret bookshelf in between our houses

.... We're adults