It's not self-doubt, it's just that a fling isn't what I want.

we all do that from time to time

Be like, What can you offer me? I'm getting a pretty good rate with my current outfit

And, if I fall in with instinct, all I'll have is one night stands.

And that's a damned hollow existence.

... or want to after crossing the Rubicon

And I can get the gals to laugh off of wit and charm.

But.. it's meaningless.

You won't find anyone

Until you get to know them

And I am also a man of meaning.

Exactly. NQ.

Amd you won't get to know them, unless you give them a chance.

(Thinks to myself: Ok! This time, we take it slow... FUCK! she wants to sleep with me.. no! no! damnit)

So until you risk fucking them, you're not gonna ever stop being totally useless and alone.

This is why I haven't been... because vapidness is irritating, though.

Loo

You gotta do it

not about not risking, it 's about not getting serious with the ones that want to fuck right away

And I examine their actions and conversations and just (internally) shake my flipping head.

make me work for it or the first fuck willl be the last

Eh everyone is worth a chance.

Nah. I don't even engage with the floozies.

who said anything abotu floozies?

I see. Your loss.

My time in the Marines gave me eyes to see that looseness.

she just need to make a man work for it

otherwise, just another lay

smells the same, tastes the same, smells the same

etc

Don't fuck them, simple.

Right, and I'm not in the mood for "just another lay."

yup ^^

i get that

Gotta mean somet'ing.

Hang out, take them home

Watch some shows

Talk

i'm a man; she the woman; her JOB to make me work for shit

otherwise, grunting

And have a good time.