Am just bored

@Sparky I'm playing a ttrpg online with some friends.

This is what I do every Saturday.

Vegan gains goes full retard

his recent video on TFM is just strawmanning and red herrings so far

what else did i expect from this idiot

for some reason whenever i listen to retards, some part of me hopes please use good arguments and argue in good faith

Well as you can see in Chat I am currently listening to music

Nothing is causes me to be bored. Music soothes that. But only for a while until I return back to reality .

It is pain in the ass that am not doing anything with my life

@Sparky do you have a job/hobbies? or are you working on a goal?

Well ain't that depressing ain't it?

Funny thing is that if I was I doubt I would have time or be doing this.

Going on discord.

Well shit

I mean, it depends on whether or not one is able to multitask

Like, if I'm just doing simple HW I can talk on here and get stuff done at the same time. If im harcore studying for physio or microbio, im def not gonna be on here as much

Multitask? Haha, I don't believe in myself enough that I can multitask .

@Sparky man, if a fuckup like me can accomplish stuff in his life, than anyone can

Wow. I complain alot.

I just hope you dont have to go through a crucible like I did, but I honestly think everyone does before they get motivated tbh. Its either that, or they dont make it

I guess I want something terrible to happen to me

Maybe that is what I am seeking to be my motivator

@Sparky what is it that youre interested in?

Good, you might want to have something really terrible happen to you.

Like success.

Because I think that all of those famous well known people struggled with a difficult memory before becoming who they are now.

So stupid.

God fucking dammit

So another I might as well say is that am afraid that my decisions will break the way of life that I have right now with my family

So I hope for their life to not turn more miserable than it is for them but while that is happening I am hurting my path of moving toward what I think should be done

Yes, it will.

Can you explain a little bit better? just having a hard time understanding whats wrong mayne

If its family issues and stuff, I can assure you itll pass one way or another

Sparky is afraid of change and taking responsibility.

Well the thing is that although i don't have a bad tie with them their actions are like fantasy.

It is walking past the pain that they pocess(or I think that they pocess) for a *normal* life.

It just isn't right.

Well yeah.

I still dont understand

What do you not understand?