i tried to kill myself when i was a teenager.
tried many many times.... MANY TIMES.
but, the thought of the possibility of hell, just the possibility.
my life is so fucking shitty, and this is supposed to not be hell?
life will get better, i just need more freedom. ect..
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now, based on that.
when i got my first GF, i wanted to wait till marriage because i was afraid of hell. the risk of it.
second reason, is because marriage is more than JUST sex, and i wanted to prove that to her.
she dumped me, because i wanted to wait till marriage.
she also wanted an open relationship, and basically friends with benefits and fuck that shit.
i'm no cuck, so i didn't allow for that.
naturally, because she had dumped because of this...
i started to question myself.
that is when i found statistics about sexual partners, stds, all sorts of shit.
Yeah.
virgins wives have the lowest divorce rates, especially if they waited till marriage.
because i HATE HIPOCRITS, and seeing how much more "difficult" it is for a woman to keep her virginity.
i figured, the least i can do is stay a virgin.
