why not just get burnt

I had a gf surprise me by holding a match to my arm

my finger tips are so calloused i can't feel heat anymore

(she was bipolar)

Didn't feel it

Smelled the hair burning tho

matches have a low heat

that's some heavy autism

That may be it

Lighters probably have low heat too

burning yourself is probably a horrifying death but the adrenaline would counteract a lot of it before hand

For work we had to watch a sixty minute safety video

about an oil rig worker who got severely burned

unlike being burnt up in an industrial oven accident

which i've seen

Talking about all the shit he went through

and will never forget

How would you kill yourself?

Self Immolation seems like a total fu to the world

shotgun to head, suspension hanging, helium hood

those are the three best ways

if you go back in the varg logs me and polenta were talking about it

yesterday

I missed it

If I killed myself I'd take out others too

Like go to a burning man festival

bombvest

I have no desire to kill myself

you can have some of mine

My weltschmerz is manageable

it's tolerable for most

suicidal ideation is pretty common

Yeah I've noticed

Everybody thinks about it

I think for.most people in the past it was talk about heaven

morbidity recontextualized

Probably a quarter of those consider it

yeah it keeps getting less and less to people who try

unfortunately a ton of attempts are with pills

which is not often effextive

Shotgun + head + trigger pull = industry standard