I don't think I'm currently equipped to explain, its more feeling/instinct

I think a week or so and I'll be able to talk at length about it

however what I can do

is link the ex-gay dude

I understand

That's cool

you didn't answer about your age, or if you like dead can dance

you dont have to of course

just checking if you missed those

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http://josephsciambra.com/surviving-gaybarely/

😝

the first major insight was that gay men are disgusted with themselves about what they do, always

initially

after that, answers came from above and below

there is no such thing as a happy, well adjusted gay man

if one thinks they have found one, a bit of scratching at the surface should break down the illusion

Also spending their younger lives as less masculine outsiders to the male hierarchy, they feel left out and long for it. They desire hierarchy, order, and place. And masculine comrades, they ones they didn't have. And what better than masculine fascism.

regimentation, camaraderie, hierarchy, uniforms

yeah

Yeah

but also, dad

faggots either want daddy to hold them, or they want to play daddy

the psyche is childish, or more accurately stunted in childhood

due to some event in a critical period of development in childhood

can be anything, even something benign seeming

exposure to pornography, catching your parents having sex

being beaten up by the neighbour kid

that's another. A loving father figure who provides half of a masculine father-son relationship. Grown up, a fascist leader can be the replacement for what he lost.

and often, being butt raped

Lol

I don't think a father figure has to be loving precisely

just there

it varies, biological factors are involved

temperament has a significant genetic component

some children will need less of a stressor to fall into this

some more

as a result, homosexauls tend to infiltrate EVERY SINGLE organization where you have masculine hierarchy

like the catholic church

secret services

armed forces less so because of the regressive mentality (peter pan-ism, perpetual adolescence)