Message from @Deleted User 57835c2c
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and the way I did it was so easy and scalable that i sold everything I grew for like $3000 to this dude I knew that was moving tons of drugs
and then I thought about how easy it would be to do 10 or 100 times that much and got freaked out and quit
it basically takes brass balls to have money
it almost requires spiritual enlightenment to have hundreds of thousands of dollars invested in something and watch it ride out the peaks and troughs
Yeah. But drug money seemed too tricky ultimately. I had other options so I discarded the idea
who knows, maybe you would be able to proceed now
in my case, I've basically always been like I'm on cocaine, all grandiose and narcissistic and ballsy
I feel like I was born to do this kind of crap, I don't even feel alive unless I am
I literally need to be taking some kind of risk almost every day or I feel dead inside
I'm very risk averse.
naturally
there comes a time I believe when every man realizes he is taking risks every single day he's alive whether he wants to or not, and that he will one day eventually die no matter how careful he is
that's when people start turning everything into a calculated risk and getting ballsy
Yeah that is basically where I am.
like... if I'm leaving this world in a hospital bed no matter what I do, I might as well do something kickass
it's not my nature, but it has to become my second nature
that's how all of us leave this world
when you start seeing people die and it stops being shocking to you, it makes you think a lot
little old ladies in nursing homes who don't wake up, people dying of horrible injuries, people getting surgery and dying on the table, wasting away from cancer, busting a blood vessel and just passing out one last time, falling and hitting their head and then getting a brain bleed and getting really demented suddenly, etc
I am amazed most docs can see that kind of shit and not reexamine their lives and why they do any of it
life's too short for a lot of things, and it's way too fuckin' short to take peoples' orders and do what they say
I don't mind taking orders from people whose orders I want to take. My current boss is like that, which is why I'm working for him. I like what he does and he's the best at it in the region and I'm learning a lot working for him.
But I broadly agree. I'll leave here when it ceases to suit me or benefit me.
you could be living your own life instead
the clock is ticking nigga
what else could you be doing? lying on a beach? having wild sex? writing great music?
I hate beaches.
I like the mountains, which is why I'm where I am. I like my girl, I like the things i do every day. I'm pretty self-actualized.
I'm not at the point in my self-development where I have the tools to do my own shit yet.
But I will. Next couple years probably.
you're self actualized?
you mean your Trve Self works in an office?
Yeah. I'm basically a sperg. I love super detailed legal shit.
so given anarchic freedom you'd still do it? what do you do, paralegal? lawyer?
lawyer
interesting. what area of law?
If I had fuck you money, I'd probably do something pretty similar. I'm really involved in energy policy in my state.
energy
tell you what
I would do it less hours per week that's for sure
if I get fuck you money (which I hope to, rather quickly in fact), I will seek out your services entirely on the basis of you being altright