There is no drug that can work.

I don't have a garage.

And again: I'm a coward.

I need someone to come help me in person.

As in, you have to physically push me off the bridge.

let me think how to accomplish that for a second

You asked a question: "why bother". I told you that I'm not going to bother answering it

for you

@Hagel Whatever. You're just mocking me at this point.

I would help you if I had a shotgun and could get away with it

That is not mocking

You could.

what is the most evil being you know of?

Easily get away with it.

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ The Jew.

God.

Existence itself. I can't really decide.

don't shoot up AIPAC

that would be wrong

Nope. That's not good enough. No spree killer ever shot a rothschild.

Roofism never works.

And I know myself too well. Nothing I do would ever succeed.

Every Effort Always Fails.

you could go to a sandbox and die witht he right tactical planning

the best tacticians spend months planning it

Again: Every Effort always Fails.

You're hoping too much.

If it involves me, all the planning is for naught. It will go wrong, I'll live through it and something worse will happen.

So long as I'm alive, Every Effort Always Fails.

so your inner demons would defuse a bomb or what?

@Hagel I mean, I've described it as a personal curse. But that just sounds a bit like hubris. To think that I'd be cursed because I'm special or that they just wanted to hurt me more.

@☯Ultra Supreme Elder Lord☯ Nope. Fate would just simply fuck me over.

Good things don't happen to me or while I'm alive.

The only thing you could say about beings like me is that we hallucinate, and are actually miserable and hopeless

@Hagel But, even if it is a personal curse. What could ever be done about it? Nothing I've ever tried has worked.

But that's like saying a food actually tastes good, you just hallucinate the bad taste

We're talking about an inner state itself, so that doesn't work

I don't follow.

You claim that reality is hopeless and existence is torture

And it's not just an inner state self. It's my outward actions.

I am not being tortured by nature