✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
http://i1.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/facebook/000/016/487/download.jpg
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
And?
I'm right and you know it.
What else is there?
FOR FREE.
Because nobody would ever pay me to do this.
Again: What else is there?
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
you either crumble inwards of you struggle with your tribe to further civilization
that's how tribes expand and conquer
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
No.
There is nothing else.
No tribe should have ever existed. This entire thing is pointless.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
well I'm sorry to say it but most can't relate to your well-being
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
And of course I would crumble. I've never been worth a damn.
I know that.
I've known that the entire time. It's one of the things that knifes me so bad about the whole thing.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
it's not pointless
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Yeah, it is.
If it's not permanent, it's pointless.
It will just be undone after its' done.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
it's about entropy; lifeforms exist in order to prevent absolute entropy
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
That's the problem.
It should be absolute entropy.
If there was no life, there would be no problems.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
http://i1.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/facebook/000/016/487/download.jpg
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Yes. FOR FREE.
What else is there?
You can post that image all you want. It's not going to do what you want it to do.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
>wanting to dimensionally cuck yourself
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
I'm right and you know it.
What else is there?
It should all be destroyed.
Every last bit of it.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
well I don't know, the new NASA EM drive is exciting

TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
If it didn't exist, it wouldn't be a problem.
No it isn't.
That will never get to us here on the low end.
Ever.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
that's just, like, your opinion, man
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
It's pretty demonstrable fact now.
*a
The EM drive will never be given to any but the (((Elites))).
They hate us.
Even white rich twits hate us.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
imagine you simulate a universe in a quantum computer
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
That's why Richard Spencer.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
and the simulated life gets conscious of itself
and conscious of the computer
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
I pull the plug on the computer and destroy it.
That's my answer.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
wouldn't that be exciting to watch?
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Always.
No, it wouldn't. It would be agonizing.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
welp, looks like we don't agree
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Of course you don't. Nobody has ever agreed with me.
It's Fate.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
not even you agree with yourself
(schizophrenia joke)
oosh, sorry
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Nope.
Don't be.
It's not like I don't deserve it.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
😦
nobody deserves it
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Yeah. They do
We all do.
Everyone does. Every life deserves death and worse.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
sorry I can't keep this discussion it's way edgier than I've ever edged

TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
I've been this edgy the entire time, where have you been?
Are you going to block me?
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
I thought you were kidding
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Why?
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
no I just ask you to stop
I don't know people like you
didn't expect, I guess
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Of course you don't.
Most people don't.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
😦
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
But, I can't really stop. This is all I am. Nothing else remains.
My entire world is destroyed. Every day.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
misery loves company... I thought that trying to help people who suffer just drags you with it
I don't know what could fix it but hiding it
well, that's why isolation is probably for the best, if you can't help it...
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
That's impossible.
Mexican Standoff. Guilt Trip. Family burden.
There is no way to hide it.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
jesus
isn't there anything you can do good
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
No. I'm not good at anything.
I've never been good at anything. I told you. My entire life is failure. Every effort I make turns to failure.
Go ugggghhhh again.

✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
that's what you want others to believe
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Because that's the only reaction.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
to give you an excuse to end it
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
No, it's what I believe. Other people spew patronizing bullshit at me.
Whatever.
It's all there is.
If I was good at something, I'd still enjoy things. If I were good at anything, I'd be worth a damn and have something other than this.
It doesn't matter what other's believe.
Because they refuse to see what is.
I'm not good at anything. I've never been good at anything. I cannot be good at anything. Fate itself will act against me and ruin ever effort to ever improve.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
if it doesn't matter what others believe, why do you talk to me?
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
The evidence of the past is enough to back that up.
Because I'm killing time until Mother Dearest dies. And very few people respond.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
failing to push through your struggle is not evidence that you have no skills

TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
So, I just scream into the internet until someone responds, I talk to them for a while and they get tired and leave.
Yeah, it is.
That's prima facie evidence that I have no skills.
What other proof would you need?
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
there must be something you enjoy doing
do that... sorry I can't help you
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Failing to push through my struggle proves that I never should have lived.
And no, there isn't anything I enjoy doing.
All the joy in my life has been killed out by my repeated failures and rejections.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
>he enjoys nothing
>for free
http://i1.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/facebook/000/016/487/download.jpg
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Yeah. FOR FREE. That image and meme isn't working like you want it to.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
I just like the meme
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
I will continue to do it for free until someone kills me for me because I'm too coward to do it now.
Of course you do.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
http://i1.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/facebook/000/016/487/download.jpg
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Whatever.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
it's funny
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
To you.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_vmOvfbg90
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
I lost any humor I had, now it's just pathetic schadenfreude.
And I can't even spell that right....
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
it's spelt that way

TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
Ahh.
Damn, it's even creeping up in there.
It's like every thought is sharp glass. Everything injures and burns. I can't get lost in fandom, go back to any of the things I used to do without this pain destroying everything that I am.
And of course, being completely worthless in every way and having no talents, skills or anything worth while or good about me doesn't help.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
neither does saying this about yourself help
TheGreatShiniGami - 01/03/2017
But what I'm saying is true.
It's not going to help because there is no way to help. Nothing can help.
But what I say about myself is true. Otherwise, I'd be someone else, someone better who didn't have any problems.
I'd be able to overcome.
And I never started saying ANY of this shit until it started happening over and over again.
✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
pretend to be fine then

✡Chaim O'Goldberg✡ - 01/03/2017
just OD man... it pains me to say but I don't see any way out that less painful

@TheGreatShiniGami What do you do in your free time?

When you're not at work or helping the family?

@Josh I hate myself. That's pretty much it. I don't have much free time. I'm asleep during most of the day. Everything else is just meh.

I lost the taste for doing anything else a while back.

Everything just became even more hollow, and everyone of my IRL friends abandoned me at once.

:(

That was back when I turned 24-25

It's just how it is. Life must always be this way.

If anything tries to make it better, the Fates get angry.

Do you think you might enjoy reading books or playing video games or something?

@Josh No. Not anymore.

I've tried. It's all hollow.

It all just reminds me that I have no talent or worth.

What about something physical and consistent?

Nope.

That just makes the Voices angry.

I've tried that too.

:(

It's Fate. 🔪

@TheGreatShiniGami , I'd say the greatest thing you can do for yourself at this point is suicide. I mean it in the best sense. Suicide is a great and honorable thing to do.

@Pelagius You've never been a coward before, have you?

Plus, it is exciting and you get to see if there is an "other side", and you leave this boring, mono-color side.

Nope. There is no excitement to ever be had. It's only Eternal Misery.

That's what this side is. That's what the other side is.

The gods are evil.

Nice troll, but you've never seen the other side.

It's not a troll.

It's a fact. That's what reincarnation is.

We know enough to have the logic to go on.

And again: you've never been a coward before, have you?

Still, consider suicide. Consider recording it, too.

Have you ever been a coward?

Of course, I have.

Then you know why I can't do that yet.