oh boy

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I do

Classical fencing and several other weapons

What can I help ya with

I doubt you'd be able to help, I only work with hand to hand combat

Ah

What are you learning

kickboxing and brazilian jiu-jitsu

I want to improve my footwork and boost my endurance

i do Judo and Taekwondo

nice

hows bbj?

i imagine its pretty simulare to judo just more groundwork stuff

Boxing, taekwondo, judo

I've never done judo so idk for certain

but there is definitely a shitton of groundwork in bjj

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-DiuM5KsPM

I fucking miss it. I would give anything to go back and fix my mistakes

I just want to be happy again.

what do you miss

Military.

the feeling?

ah

It was the only time anyone gave a shit

It was the only time my father or mother was proud of me

I don't really know your situation, but a lot of my problems were fixed when I stopped giving a shit what others thought

basing your value on others' appraisal of it is unhealthy

what's stopping you from going back?
but honestly I speak from experience when I say that that shit doesn't matter as much as you think it does... I know it hurts to shit but it gets easier with time
my dad is kind of a prick
always told me how I'd never do this or that or "you look like a faggot" etc

do what makes you happy not what makes other people happy even if you love them

I was diagnosed and discharged with major depression disorder when I left the military. I am barred from all military service

fuck

My mom pretends I don’t exist and my dad always compares me to people who died for our country. Like he did today

I would do anything to do die for our country

I was on my way to be drone pilot

1U031

TS clearance found something in my prior history 9 years before enlisting. A depression diagnosis I had completely forgotten about

OPSEC interrogated me. I told the truth. I was put in a squadron with rapists and critically injured. Waiting to be sent home

I fought a 2 month legal battle to stay in. I lost.

Just like that, all the training and hard work was for nothing.

No benefits through the VA, nothing to show for it.