and that spirit of optimism that prevailed even in a dark period of the nadir of race relations and extreme colonialism,

this sense that there was a whole new world being created, one full of exciting new things, new ideas, and new technologies, foodstuffs that could keep for years and be bought for relative pennies on the dollar..

grand works of iron and steel etc. etc.

they had no idea what was going to happen did they

how could they have realized what the 19th century was building towards?

(I'm referring to ww1 and ww2 of course, all of which was foretold in the late 19th century..)

question do you think that it would be good advice pre-ww1 for the french to adopt some kind of hammer-fired bolt-action rifle (chambered with a double-stack magazine that used a rimless cartridge), as hammer-firing means it's easier for future conversion to a semi-automatic form?

or would it really just be better to tell the french to fucking choose a rimless cartridge and convert the berthier to use it (and longer enblock clips) instead of trying to re-invent the wheel with that stupid St. Étienne Mle 1907

I'm 24 and have never lived my life...

I feel like I've been dead since high school, there's been nothing interesting or noteworthy, or worthwhile, besides being a coomer.

dear fucking god this sucks

I can't cum, I'm living in a dorm and my desktop is in the main room, lol... I just want to sit in my parents house and play H-Games all day but I've got to get a computer science degree aparrently

seriously I could literally just jerk off and make my emotion-creators (an H-game-thing) hentai shit all day

and jerk off to sadPanda

fuck working fuck being productive, fuck 3dPD girls especially

eh, therapy is kind of eh... it's a bit too expensive and it's also kind of hard to get it across, I wish I could find a psychoanalyst though.

what?

why do the french seem like the only sane people left on the planet?

eh, I was talking more about their protections from corporate shenanigans.

then again there's that ban on endless fountain drinks, which is stupid.

but like it's relatively sane still compared to most of america which is cucked beyond repair.

yeah, I mean I'm pretty sure they still have nuclear power plants, they supply most of germany's "zero emission" electricity if I'm not mistaken

because germany is largely still dependent on coal.

they definitely have nuke weapons though.

and an aircraft carrier, which is nuclear powered

but seriously we here in the US are so fucking stupid to think that "striking workers bad", or "lol the french are lazy surrender monkeys for not wanting to suck up to their boss all weekend"

or "lol what pansies, they're smashing cars and burning shit because they're being asked to take a paycut while their bosses get a raise"

I've got foot in mouth disease,

it's a bit stupid, I can't seem to talk to girls without them trying to get away or looking cornered.

so my solution is to ignore girls.

nah

I'm a guy

I've got balls, I like to jerk off to h-stuff, and whatever, but girls I should just ignore since they're more trouble than they're worth

I should take up drinking instead

yeah

well what do I need it for if I'm terrible with women?

lol, I tried being outgoing, and now I'm pretty sure the whole dorm thinks I'm some kind of sex-pest or predator or stalker.

first thing I did when I came here in fall, ah...

oh, I did a lot, a hell of a lot, but I've heard them talking and it's not good, stay away from them, don't talk to them they don't want to talk to me.

it's all the fears and all the horrors I had only merely suspected of being there before

I was right to hide for a long time

but for me a hell of a lot is quite a little compared to what normies get up to, at least in practice.

they do it though with such subtlety, it's odd.

imagine coming out of a /pol/ or /r9k/-induced psychosis, only to have their bias's and their beliefs confirmed, spread before you.

to have the willpower to crawl out of that crushing, depressing nihlism, that defeatism, that sad and bleak worldview. Only to have it largely confirmed as being "right" as far as you were concerned, it's funny in it's own way... it's really funny...

sorry

It's just exhausting because I cannot find a refutation that's believable

am into art to a degree, still a wretch for the most part,

kindle fire tablets are surprisingly good for porn

decently sized-screen and cheap, you can watch videos and shit on them, plus browse pictures.

it's pretty good, especially if you've got a stand or something for it.

>just fuck something.

dryhumping my matress while thinking about girls I knew back in highschool and community college get's boring after a while though.

lol

where do you think you are buddy?

>"just fuck a girl." what are you gay or something?

nah

How does one suck less

the hype is undermined by a track record of failure and a general sense that I'm basically staving off the inevitable.

I can't seem to find a psychologist or therapists who's not on the other fucking side of town and/or actually is qualified for me.

I desperately need to be something more but there's nothing there deep down, Nothing worth saving.

all the shit I care about is complete garbage, worthless, it's interesting to me but I'm probably an idiot since I can't even get laid or feel the warmth of something. there's no sense of being good around people.

I should just kill myself already,

Its fucking dumb

I tried for once last semester, I tried for once to "put myself out there" and all I got for it was a feeling that I was unable to relate to anyone.

and nobody seems any the wiser, and the girls I tried talking to now avoid me or look at me coldly, I wish they could understand.

I wish I could explain myself in a way that is different.

I'm a terrible horrible no good incel

ha ha ha

I'm not even sure I should care

what are the ethics of investing in gun manufacturers?

I'm thinking Ruger, what defense contracts does that have?

I'm basically just wanting to invest in a gun-manufacturer that isnt also a major defense contractor

Bernie is going to win the general and I figure I might as well profit

https://youtu.be/zvq9r6R6QAY

https://youtu.be/zvq9r6R6QAY

https://youtu.be/p3G5IXn0K7A

fuck mass appeal, I'm on a nostalgia bait trip, I want to revive the glorious past.

I forgot about caramelldansen until today, or rather I had placed it in the back of my mind