medical tv dramas are something that is exclusivelly western invention, and all the fascination with psychology fits within that as well

when in reality they are all whores on drugs vying for social status

that is why I hate my coworkers

medical dramas are all bullshit anyway, every single one of them

I do not even drink coffee and they are all out doing cocaine lines out of each others' buttholes

even medical documentaries are often bullshit

people consdier doctors *ideal* type of personality, somebody who should be entrusted even with *leading*the society

when in the past, they occupied the dignity of *professionals*

you mean the abstraction of "doctor" yes?

well, people project that onto individuals

well yes, but also skilled medical workers in general

and the individuals, receiving benefit from that both at an individual and group level, play into it as much as possible

being a doctor selects for two things, intelligence and conscientousness

the latter of which is easily feigned

and social climbing

yeah

feigned conscientiousness = comeptitive altruism and other social climbing

does it feel good to help people @Deleted User 57835c2c

fallot did I tell you I met a 4th year medical student who had literally never done a chest compression or come up with a treatment plan?

it depends if the people are good or bad fallot

if the people are good, yes

i believe this is sourced from western fetish for "rational" as well as western prioritization of safety and comfort

but if I help bad people I am making the world worse

never done a chest compression on a real person?

doesn't seem too egregious

and also, western fetishization of intimate and social, and hospital is deemed as perfect environment of drama, of social, intimate and "human"

humanism in general

tell me anyway

gtg

later

see you around

keep the gypsies at bay

^^

well come on then @Deleted User 57835c2c

don't leave me hanging

4th year medical student, chest compressions, treatment plan -> ?

I did my first chest compression for real in my first year of house job

which would I guess be first internship year

or something

https://forums.psychcentral.com/5510363-post8.html

what do you think about that post @Deleted User 57835c2c

https://luckyottershaven.com/2015/04/25/letter-from-a-narcissists-true-self/

back

sorry was giving the kid a bath

no worries

When you begin to trust me, I will start abusing you, because I must keep you at arm’s length and keep my mask of lies intact at all costs. Both the niceness I show you and the asshole I become are both lies. I cannot even access who I really am. I have forgotten. I just know that my true self is there, somewhere, and I can never, ever, let you meet them.

I am not even done with 3rd year and I have done so many codes now

I was legitimately mad as fuck at that student for even saying that

must be a difference in the setup I think

because I had done chest compressions on like... let me think... I can't even remember

it was at least 2 codes a week

at least, because several times I had 2 a day

and one time they had a situation where this guy froze to death, but the law says they have to be up to a certain temperature to pronounce them dead because they could in theory bounce back

so they had a train of every student in the hospital running chest compressions on him for 6 hours

while they slowly rose his temperature

I swear I was almost getting to the point where they were gonna let me do an epi injection

but I was busting my ass so hard, even in that one area, and then somebody coasted by a whole year longer than me and hasn't even done one

and the more I investigated the more I found this person basically did not know shit

they did not know why you give insulin to a patient with hyperkalemia, like they did not know what the point of that was

but they knew how to present to attendings and seem super smart

that is most doctors in the early stages

high conscientousness, moderate to high intelligence types

"good boys"

that has basically been my med school experience, I am running around figuring shit out and doing stuff

while people try to look good

and even worse

"good girls"

the worst

yes

this was a girl

she wasn't too small to do CPR though, I've seen chicks her size do it

it does change, I mean I don't know how it is in the US, it sounds shit

but things change once it becomes all professional

but instead of doing CPR she can probably do a kegstand on an attending's dick

women don't like to get their hands dirty at that stage usually

it becomes a barrier for them

then what the fuck are they in medicine for

in the UK this would be tested in first foundation year

send them home to their husbands

they've been deluded by the world around them

but they can do it, it's just taxing

basically I am constantly mad at nurses and women doctors

I've just always been myself, whether or not it works out for me in the short term

in the long run it always seems to work out

there is an undercurrent to human relationships

the simple things in life

that may seem maudlin, or unnecessary

that's why I want to do some ultra hardass dangerous kind of hardass psychiatry nobody else wants to do

I know there will be no idiot women intentionally exposing themselves to violence

too much bullshit in the field, too easy to convince yourself you're doing something real while you're actually playing out a delusional script

that's why I like general surgery

to me not being around idiot women is more valuable than actually helping anything

your patients and non-doctor colleagues will end up being women in a field like psychiatry even if its hardcore

if I do prison psychiatry or whatever I know I will be dealing with human pollution, they will not get better and it is a waste of time

unless it is physically hardcore

like antarctic scientist psychiatry

I don't really care about helping people, but I care about doing effective things

I don't care about either, I just want to have a good day

I wouldn't be satisfied doing something that kept me fed if it was itself pointless

me neither, which is why I don't want a job