To fuck with me?

i dunno

i do think she might be

but i clearly remember thee metaphyscal shit

it was not fun

anyway, in the 1900s with the New Thought movement, Hermetics had a sort of revival

This guy Atkinson made a book called the Kybalion which has all these axioms, and was expounded upon in his other books

hmm

Maybe I should look into this

then there was this Bardon guy in the 40s who wrote loads of books, the most popular being a set of hermetic exercises

i always was told religion was... bullshit

now-a-days you can find most of this for free

but i'm starting to think a LOT of science is BULLSHIT

cause they told me "oh these science pills will cure anxiety"

my anxiety NEVER got cured

till i started believing in god

that's because they trust in statistic

statistics are BS

my chances of being born with red hair were 2%

has to mean something

eh

also to be blunt the "life string"

http://www.blogger.ba/photos/197602.jpg

Had a similar form to that

but it was infinnet

it went from... simpler life forms

to more complicated

In Judaism there is something like this.

really?

the ones below were odd

Also Hermetics

i remember the african savanna and stuff

it was odd

i also remember being... a lizard

and before that a fish...

and before that bacteria

and before that... a star... and before that... a black hole...

There are different parts of the brain corresponding with different parts of human development.

the black hole horrified me...

oh...

yeah

It might have been that

i dont exactly remember what was above mine

Old imprints

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imprinting_(psychology)

i do remember more... colorful almost cartoonish realms populated with beings.. unlike ours.

they were... really nice

and another realm... where... eevrything was just metaphyscal shapes and shit

and the communication was through beeps blips and odd shit.

kinda like... being inside a computer

explain THOSE?

I got nothing. Maybe a persona of quantum particles

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fractal

Also thats a lot

yeah it's weird

Yeah, fractals are crazy

I feel like

my existance

is a perminant fractal of myself

and only me

but yeah

I tried explaining this in another group

everyone was like "you're crazy"

"science is truth reliigon is BS"

nah

I think science is statistics but will never explain... the weeirdness and WEIRD SHIT that happeens to me

wanna know what else is fucking weird

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zH1cgoVpz8g

Thats literally similar to what I saw

and i didnt see this "before" the incident

i saw it exactly a month later

in veb 18th

*feb

it happened jan 18th

and when i saw it it blew my fucking MIND

cause the "noises" i hear in that

are similar to what i heard in that mindstatee on the ground with my eyes closed

cool video

Yeah I like it

It was reeally cool to me.

I like how she became a "lion" in the savanna

then a human

then a cyborg

thee idea of being a cyborg scares the SHIT out of me.

like I DONT want to go in that direction

ye, i have transhumanists on my enemies list

causee i have a feeling "free will" will be destroyed

and humanity will become... a machine monolith

i dont like transhumanism

I'm not against genetic engineering to "perfect" dysgenics

such as... get rid of diseaes

but to JUST BE MACHINES

nah

thats a bad idea.

micochipping humans so they got no free will sounds... scary.

thats what scares mee the most.

thats really what "traumatized" me the most in that expierence

"losing my free will" "losing myself" and "being one of many"

I like the idea of being the lone hunter, thee predator who hunts down the "many"

not the sheep who runs in unison with a heard helplessly