are you free today

YO

Hey what's going on

You free today bruh?

I am free every day until I find a worthy job

:scream:

Will gets off around 5, we can be down in Austin around 6 ish and so will James. We can meet up with you to welcome you back in person! Do some stickering/flyering.

Oh, I am in San Marcos now

James could pick you up

What time were you thinking we meet?

Oh 6

6 ish yeah

I'm going for a swim in a minute, can we meet another day or is today the only day?

not the only day but it would be pretty cool

I got punched in the brain yesterday pretty hard, I'm relaxing, feel concussed

I'm definitely down to meet but the first meet I want to feel great

we could just hang out for an hour or two, would that work? then the the three of could do activism and you can rest.

Is the meet happening regardless of my attendance

no

I would prefer to pick a day in the near future if possible

this coming week were headed to dfw, so it can't be this week other than today

Ah, I see

I would prefer my first physical reunification meeting with you guys to be one where I feel good

So perhaps the weekend after next

27, 28?

Yes

aight

I am grateful you guys wish to see me again 🙏 and I look forward to it.

looks like the 28th

sounds good?

around the same time

Yes I look forward to helping CenTex thrive

on another note, could get 3ma? we use it for calls.

*could you

3ma cost $3

yes

I need to learn tech better. How do I purchase without using my card? This is a burner phone

you can't get it w/o using a card

do you only use burners

Everything is a burner even my laptop

:flushed:

Yes nobody in my life even knows my real name.

Im no longer depressed, I would never suicide myself, so if I'm found suicides, it wasn't me

If I'm found suicided*

secret agent nathan over here

🤫

has your availability changed at all for the 19th and 20th?

Probably not going to make it

:neutral_face:

James is trying to reach you. What's going on?

Miscommunication. Thought we were meeting at the Square theater

When I arrived at the theater on campus nobody was there

He's at the spot right now doing it solo. What's your burner number so I can give him it and he can call you

At 6:57, according to my display, I was told "in 15 minutes I'm starting without you"

I got there withing 15. He is upset

Were you meant to meet him at 7pm

I misunderstood the meeting spot. Didn't make sense to meet at the mark considering I'm injured I thought we were both meeting at the Square theater. It's my misunderstanding I never knew of another theater

join us on mumble

rejoin

Someone is talking about legal stuff

that was will and he's offline now

Wtf

So me saying I'm afraid to get doxxed means I am a flake?

I was accused of being a list last night. Who is lying though

I meant to write I was accused of being a list* not list

Damnit auto correct

You're lying right here about me Jason, why

That you flake out of attending demos is not a lie

Tell me what the last demo was that you've attended? To me "to flake" isn't just standing up someone but it is also making excuses about why you can't attend demos or larger gatherings pf people. How many of these have I attended without getting doxxed? Damn near all of them since joining.

AIPAC in Houston, the Dallas statue coverings then that's it. Those were the last ones. Back in 2019.

I wanted you at every single demo since and all I ever got from you were excuses. That's flaking.

Happy Thanksgiving

Hey Jason

You're right

You're absolutely right

I am a flake. I didn't commit as a way to weasel out without being labeled a flake

I haven't been what my duty requires

I put my income above my duties.

We all need an income, I'm not holding that against you, but all these guys that attend these things get time off so they can attend them. You can do that too. What's your status with this coming weekend of 3rd, 4th, 5th?

You're right I'm not being sarcastic. I didn't see it. I suppose I was lying to myself, is the word delusional? I can see the truth you point out and I admit I am wrong.

I feel there is a member in the org who wants me gone, an agent. I do not feel comfortable traveling that far without getting a feel for everything

I believe you said you have a cooking job. Can you switch shifts to attend this coming weekend?

You'd be with us, so that should put you at ease with the travel uncomfortability.

The 2nd national was my first time going far af for a demo. You think I was comfortable? Hell no, but the journey to the spot with all the guys are memories that'll stay for a lifetime. Don't let any fear or uncomfort get to you.

As for some guy being out to get you, I think you have some lingering mental shit from Zel's remark about how "we don't want you in Poland" or some shit. That and the Alex drama.

Your thoughts?

I don't want to risk my ass and have no honor. It's natural

But I'm not here for me

And I have to remind myself

Risk your ass how and have no honor how? Could you explain.

When a man works for free many times a week consistently and gets no/little respect, he is probably going to stop. I seeked to gain respect another way and failed

Are you referring to how you did activism a lot in Austin? Who's respect were you trying to get? Because, believe it or not, you had, and still have, respect from us in nw2. Why the hell else would we want you back this whole time?

Whatever doubts or nagging thoughts you have, you need to stop listening to them. you have my respect, you have James's respect, Billy's, Will's etc. We wanted you back since you left. Forget the past and focus on the future.

My decisions led the the gulag style death of the only thing that ever truly loved me. I lost confidence in my ability to make decisions after that, I went crazy with guilt and regret, It was really bad. My confidence is coming back, I realize my dog is with God. But I'm still a bit shaken up about it, and I no longer have my support system/family. I need help getting my life back together

That's what we're here for, just ask us to help you.

I want to be active, but the timing isn't good. I know I can be great but I need to get my life together and don't know where to start

We can't do anything if you don't communicate with us.