And he corrected me.

He said American women are like that.

The thought had never crossed my kind that this was something isolated to Western culture.

I just assumed that it was all women.

And showed me a picture on his phone of a woman.

A beautiful woman in bikini probably 22.

He said that's my wife.

And he went on to tell me that there is something severely wrong with American women.

And told me he was like me untill he traveled to eastern Europe. I think the ukrain.

And he told me about renting cars and racing them around across all the different boarders and seeing real women for the first time in his life.

And he told me " never give your time or money to an American woman.

They are incapable of appreciating anything beond their own self interests.

That got me thinking.

So when I got home I googled "what is wrong with American women"

I can't even remember the man's name. Not sure I ever got it.

And that eventually let me to tfm.

When I first heard the things he says I appalled.

I mean sure women suck, but he is so bold in the way he says it, it comes off dehumanizing.

But I found alot of other men trying to explain female nature.

I needed to know everything these guys knew in a effort to understand how this happened. How women could be so selfish and self indulged.

I know now.

But at the time I didn't want to believe it.

The more I listened the more I understood the how and the why.

It took me while come back and really understand how tfm came to believe what he did.

Have you traveled the world? @Dango_chan

Yea I do.

Not so different from my story.

Most of the women I was involved with also cheated on me.

I even told one of them that we should split up when she got out of high school so she could get it out of her system guilt free.

I was like the second guys she had been with.

"oh no. I love you I could never do that" she pleaded.

She went to the Dominican republic with her girlfriends after graduating highschool.

And fucked one of the bartenders. Haha

Didn't tell me till almost a year later.

I guess the guilt had been eating her up inside as I was true to her. She could let go of the idea of moving out of where we live. On to bigger better things.

And it always bothered me that after I provided so much to her. A place to live. I bought her books for the local college she went to, fixed her car when it broke. And all she could dream about was leaving.

After she told me I made her get tested for STDs.

Which thankfully was negative.

But I knew then I could never trust her again.

So when she said she was going to move to go to college I threw her out of house.

She wanted to do the long distance thing.

But had develop a solid career and business that isn't something I could up root and move.

I couldn't understand why she didn't repect that

So I sent her packing. Never spoke.to her again.

In a sense I am greatful for that experience.

It crushed my faith in women.

I did have a few serious relationships after that.

Dude. When I was 17 I dated a chick that was 25

She wanted me to put a baby in her.

She begged for it.

I refused.

She was crazy, but the best fuck I ever had.

She was trying had to get that batter. Haha

Then she cheated on me and had a kid to a junkie

I have a funny story about that chick.

I know for sure.

I used live out of my car hustling trees and shrooms at festivals to survive.

Damn man.

I lived in the woods out of my car. Best time of my life.

Well this chick came along for the ride one summer.

After 3 months on the road she freaked out.

We were in the middle of no where in West Virginia after a night for shroomin

She freaked out and told me to take her home to her mother.

I was pissed, but drove her the 7 hours home.

She committed her self.

Should have. But I was the good guy back then.

I got a call from the emergency room and it was her.

She asked me to pack her bags and bring them to her.

So I did. And I took it to here.

She was then sent to an institution where I visited her from time to time.

She was a freak.

And she wanted me fuck her in the loony bin

So I did.

We had a quicky with the door cracked and the nurses walking by

That was too weird for me at 18 years old.

So I stopped going to visit her and moved on with my life.

When she got out she immediately got knocked up by the skeezy as heroin addict I've ever seen in my life.

And she named that kid Dude.

Hahahhaha

No. I knew they where crazy.

Jebus

Yea man herb, shrooms, and the occasional lsd trip.

For me lsd is sacred and I only do it with people I love dearly once every couple years.

Yea. Heroin crack and meth are extremely dangerous.

I was fortunate that I didn't like heroin when I tried it.

Then I saw it ruin and kill alot of people. So I got very lucky

I think people just need to be properly educated on what drugs really are and the real repercussions you face in doing them.

This "drugs are bad mmkay" is a bad way over educating people about it.

It creates a forbidden fruit mentality towards it.

If people where honestly empower with the truth about it I am certain people would never try it in the first place.

One of these days I want to call in and tell my story. All the things that led me to mgtow.

It's tragic, and kind of funny. But humbling more than anything.

Well I guess all stop clogging up hermits discord. Thanks for listening.

I would like to help and offer any advise I can for you young guys.

I know I know.

Have your heard the video tfm did a few months after he got the doll?

He expressed his reluctance.

I don't know what it was called, but I remember it was short.

He mentioned laying in bed with it and feeling the cold skin against his own.

It reminded me of the feeling you get right after you jerk it to some really weird porn. That strand feeling of shame.