desu~

....kill me

ikr

imagine some cute anime girl just going "arrahu akubaru desu" and blowing herself up, blood and gore all over the place

🤘

ikr

huehuehue

back to the greatest bass player of all time

at least he left the stage a winner

Rest in peace

Nonsense, I was brought here by a link o:

it was under one of MrRepzion's videos >__>

xD

I love ruining shit ❤

#leather-rebel

I knew you would :3

I only jog nowadays

ever since army, hadn't been going to gym or anything

haha, now I would first have to find out where the gym is first

I don't know this city that well yet

and it's HUGE

like I swear

never lived in a big city before

Vaasa

it's not as big as Helsinki, but by my standards, it's pretty big

it takes an hour for me just to walk to university

nah, I got lectures and lessons 2-3 times a week

usually wednesday and thursday, and an occasional friday too

:3

before this I studied music... I sorta miss that

but I decided not to make that my career, out of fear that I would begin hating it

japanese language, history and culture

as weeb as it may sound

always been interested in that, even before I ever knew what anime was

xD

I have met weebs

like, real genuine weebs

not all anime fans are weeaboos

weeaboos are those who have no life outside anime, and so on

I watch anime casually

I'm an all around nerd; anime, video games, books, movies, all sorts of things

but music has always been the one thing I'm most passionate about

and that one year studying it was the best year of my life

so far

me too, and compose them

with guitar

I used to play piano... can't anymore

I kinda wanna learn again though

and I also wanna learn violin

violin + electric guitar is my favorite combo ❤

I love all sorts of music, I have a really vast taste... but my fave genres have always been rock and metal

my mom was a metalhead

and is

even today

father isn't much of a music person

my mom used to be a goth apparently

I saw a pic of her once xD

it was so weird

like, she is the most upbeat person you can think of

and when you see a person like that in her teens looking so goth you'd think she shits bats

it was just

so weird

I was an emo back in the day... although, I had been through a lot

I still wear mostly black though, but that's just because I like that style.

I used to eat anti-depressants like candy

I had 6 suicide attempts

last one almost succeeded

it was a med overdose, and the doctors just barely managed to keep me alive

it's okay, past is dead and buried for me

I see... sorry to hear that

my reasons for becoming obssessed with ending myself came out of bullying

I was beaten up daily, called worthless and so on

and eventually I began hating myself

it's okay... I'm sorry to hear about your parents

mine were always loving and good towards me, and I regret not being honest with them about what was going on in my life

I used to just fake a smile, tell them that I was all fine and then spend all day alone

sounds like terrible parenting... I can't even imagine how it must be like

I'm the oldest of my siblings too

my family is somewhat religious, but not a whole lot

I used to pray every night back in the day though... until around halfway of that hell

I don't believe in anything either, but I don't like using the word atheist

I was a satan worshipper for a short while

joining up with that lot was a huge mistake though

I realized that a bit too late

got traumatized for life, and my suicidal streak began

I see... well, those emotions were still as real as can be

I'm over my past for the most part, but there was this one night with that group that I can never shrug off I believe

it comes to me in my nightmares

from time to time

I'm sorry to hear that... you still take anti depressants as you said?

damn... I'm sorry to hear that :S

I'm completely free of pills today, and I've changed a lot

I'm sorry too... losing a family member at such young age must be difficult