sometimes I think, i f anything can bring down the european it will not be islam or invasion, but iwll be alcohol

Alcohol makes depression worse especially in the morning

this is true, i cn confirm. but when you are drinking it, it mke all your problems go away. like muy disseerartation dirrector who yesterdya said "nothing about whie genocide" in you rdissertation. and i'm like... FUCK that' slike 1/3 of my disserttaion

so what to do now

dinrka a little, then think a little

how do i approach ewhite genocde without naming it"

i think i may have manic depressive disorder too

although maybe that's just because i don't workout much these days

Hard not to get depressively self-absorbed these days

Constantly wondering what's wrong, what's the point of everything and whether anything is worth it at all

Whether the problems you have are really important at all, or do you invent every struggle to give yourself purpose

nah i never get like that

i get mood swings

But the best possible approach to life, is to appraoch it as if you were a God that was banished temporarily to Earth

And you are essentially doing nothing but curiously and eagerly awaiting what kind of challenges will this earthly life put in front of you

i just imagine that life is a simulation

which i guess it could be

Struggles that you find here on earth, are not your depressive bruden, but you simply *join* them, happy to take part

in the end it matters less how you think about it vs what actual chemicals get produced in your brain

i need to start working out again

and ill be in tip top mental shape

Workout is something that's either an essential part of your life or not

@The Enlightened Shepherd It's important for me, since my shitty pancreas can't function on its own.

lol

I have been working out since like i finished my elementary school

and i have never "started woring out" or started bodybuilding before summer

I could take a week break or something for whatevr reason

well you started in elementary school

but never had periods of break, then starting all over etc etc

and i dont work out much at all, never more than 1 hour

i had a break period because i got sick and couldn't workout

then i kind of fell out of routine

my gym buddy couldn't go as well

so a month turned into a few months

etc

lol, i have been avoiding going with my friends to the gym at all costs

i like to go with friends on hiking trips etc. but never to the gym our on an outdoors workout

it immediatelly prolongs it for 30 minutes

im not really jacked much either, never took supplements or cared to adjust diet for proteins etc

that kind of defeats the purpose of the workout then

though i did get muscular and made my stomach flat at least