oh and uh

I've only been on discord for a month ish

also act really helpful depending on the place

Ah well see I just have crippling self loathing paired with a need for external validation.

people underestimate how easy it can be to network with the right people sometimes

I care way too much what people think of me.

>implying you calmed down @coattailsandbowties

💔

@coattailsandbowties can you stop saying things like that because they resonate way too well with me

this self relfection isnt what I want

I want to see shitposts, not my crippling issues revealed

And then behind the mask you're like

@Deleted User did you see me at the beginning of my time here holy shit

but seriously using that mask has helped me find some real awesome people

you wish you were a model server member like me

I'd give an example of what they've done but I dont want to look like a faggot

Ask nicolle I'm pretty sure she hated me the first month

nicolle hates most people though

This sums it up

yknow what I think would help me

Lmao

if I started to accept the fact that most people dont give a shit about me

compared to the amount that actually hate me

Yeah you'd be surprised how much people don't care

And then

Could replace Coattails with just about anybody there.

She met the love of her life

I mean I'd like to be able to accept that there are some people who *do* give a shit about me.

Beautiful isn't he

@coattailsandbowties *I don't*

I know.

@Dandy Zerg beautiful cow w

I was talking more family and irl friends

Ah righto.

Few that I have.

i know how feeling like you need validation/be cared about by everyone is

Ah now stop be all depressing this morning.

@Deleted User same

I know it's dumb and unsustainable but atm that's how my mind works.